Our Story

Part 10

 Warning- Self harm on this. If you are uncomfortable with this topic please don't read this chapter!!

A week later

I hadn't seen mattheo since we got home from our date. Once we got back he immediately got a call from my dad and had to leave. He left by kissing me quickly and telling me where he was going. I texted me the next day saying my dad sent him on an out of state assignment. We haven't been able to text much during the day but at night we facetime each other for hours. We've gotten to know a lot about each other. He learned that my dads been hitting me since I was a kid and I learned that his dad left him when he was seven and his mother has bipolar disorder so he joined the gang to pay for her medication. He told me the details about the mission and I told him that since he's been gone, Savannah has made it her personal mission to make my life at school hell. She's making fun of me every chance she gets. She trips me whenever she walks by her.

" Why don't you just stick up for yourself aurora. I know better than anyone that you can ''.

"It's not that simple and you know it. If i could stick up for myself i would. When i lose my temper bad things happen Mattheo. You don't know because you haven't seen me when i do."

" You're right, and I'll never know if you don't open up to me rora" "I will. In time Mattheo.'' We talked for a little longer about our favorite things to do and places we'd like to go but after a while we both got tired and went to sleep.

It's Friday so today is the last day of school before the weekend which was such a relief. I wake up and grab my glasses and phone off my nightstand. I put my glasses on and check my phone . I have one message from Mattheo.

Mattheo:

"I'm supposed to be coming back today. I'll try to make it back before the sixth period."
Aurora:

" I don't even want to go to school today :( "

Mattheo:

" I know love, but after today you have the whole weekend with me. Your fathers supposed to be going on a business trip so we'll have two days. Just us.

I told Ryan to keep an eye out for you at school. He's gonna drive you to school today"

Aurora:

"Alright. Hopefully I get to see you at school."

I look up from my phone to the clock. 6:26. I also look at the date. Shit. It's May 27th. My birthday is tomorrow. Luckily if Mattheo is right then my dad will be gone tomorrow. He always made me hate my birthday. Well not always, I used to love it. Up until my fifth birthday. That's when everything changed for the worst.

I push the thought out of my head not wanting to think about it any longer. I get out of bed and walk to my towel cabinet pulling out two towels. One for my hair and the other for my body.

I walk into the bathroom, turn on the shower putting it way more hot than cold and pull the hoodie off that I stole from Mattheos room while he's been gone. He saw that I had it on and his reaction was not what I expected it to be.

Flashback to last night

(On the phone)

I'm sitting on my bed reading " It ends with us" By Colleen Hoover when my phone starts to ring. I mark my place and set the book down on my nightstand. I pick up my phone and answer. Mattheos' face appears on the screen looking like he was getting ready to go to sleep even though he was standing up in what looked like a bathroom. His hair was a mess. He didn't have a shirt on and was wearing low waisted gray sweatpants . Even through the phone my face turned red seeing him without a shirt on. I could get used to this view. He picks the phone up and looks at the screen very closely.
"Aurora Smith, are you wearing my hoodie?" He started to smile when I got nervous.

" Maybe". I say in a low tone feeling my face getting hot.

" You look good in my clothes." I smile at that.

End of flashback

I blush just thinking about the way he reacted. I thought that he would get mad that I was in his room looking through his closet but he just didn't care.

I'm not wearing anything under the hoodie but my underwear. I take them off, throw them into the dirty laundry basket and get in the shower. I feel the hot water hit my skin and it burns but my body quickly gets used to it. I put shampoo in my hair catching a glimpse of my arm. I look down at all the cuts on my arms remembering why I put them there. I start to get flashbacks of that night.

I see her on the ground. I see the blood all over her. I start to cry and can't seem to catch my breath. I look up at the knobs that control the water temperature and turn the cold off all the way leaving only hot. I slowly sit down resting my head on my knees right under the water feeling the water burn my back. My skin starts to feel like it's on fire as my breathing slows down.

I figured out that hurting myself stops the flashbacks. Giving my mind something else to focus on was one of the only ways to stop them. Other then getting high or drunk. My father tried controlling them and using them against me. He would tell me that if i didn't help him with his work then they would keep getting worse. I believed him at first. That's how I started with this in the first place.

But once I was around nine I realized that he was just using it to get what he wanted. Once i found out i started to get them a lot more. Until one time I was having a flashback i had a glass cup in my hand and squeezed it to hard making it shatter in my hand. Feeling the cuts on my hand snapped me out of it. I used to get them a lot more than I do now because I learned that. When it first happened i couldn't sleep. I couldn't eat. I didn't even come out of my room until my father did what he did. It was one of the lowest points in my life. And this all happened when I was a kid. I never wanted to be that low again. I refuse to be.

All the shampoo is washed out so I stand back up and continue taking my shower as if nothing happened.

- I'm not sure if should put smut in this so early so please comment whether you want me to or not.

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