Save Me...SOLBY

•Part 23•

TW:ED,hospitals,Talks of (SH,ED)

Sam's POV

I didn't wanna go into school today the anxiety just thinking about it was so bad I was shaking. Why am I such a problem what the fuck did I do to deserve this? I didn't do anything...

Colby woke up and looked at me then smiled,I slightly smiled back because I didn't have the energy to actually put on a smile even for him...I feel so bad no matter what I do he's always there and being patient with me.

"Love? Are you alright?" He asked sitting up ready to listen to me I shrugged then nodded. I don't know what was wrong with me but today just isn't it I don't want to go to school but my attendance is so bad that even the schools concerned.

"Imma go get ready" I said sighing quietly to myself I turned to see Colby watching me leave. As soon as I closed the bathroom door I slipped down beside the bathroom and let out a big sigh,I can't be bothered today...

I got changed and everything then walked out and Colby kissed me then got ready. You see I live the affection he's giving me but it's werid...aren't I meant to be giving him that affection and I'm meant to suffer?

I walked downstairs and saw the roses I gave to him yesterday I smiled a little. I didn't believe him when he said he would keep them I still don't maybe it's just a game? Am I playing along to one of his games?

No he's not like Katrina he would never...but no one else can love me...I'm scared at this point I feel like this is going to be my last relationship. I'm done I can't carry on anymore.

Colby came downstairs and grabbed my hand but I pulled away "S-sorry" I stammered I felt so bad,Colby gave me a questioning look and just looked so annoyed? Mad? Bored? I don't know...all I know is that it made me overthink and my mind was running.

I got myself into the car and didn't even bother putting on my seatbelt. Once Colby got in he didn't even do it for me which I'm thankful for I didn't wanna be touched to much today I'm not in the mood.

"Sam...please could you do your seatbelt I don't want you getting hurt..." he said while starting to drive. I didn't put my seatbelt on if I got hurt what harm can it do? I harm myself anyway I laughed a little at myself saying that.

God I really am pathetic like seriously how the fuck does Colby love me? I'm not sure but he deserves better...he deserves a girl with a slim body,perfect face,perfect waist,perfect eyes,perfect legs,perfect hair and perfect everything.

I don't have none of that I'm just a guy who no one notices who's secretly battling an eating disorder and maybe one person knows...

Colby walked a few centimetres away from me and my anxiety started to kick in I was getting really scared. I was about to reach for his hand when I remembered what happened last time...

I Just delt with it trying to ignore it but nothing was working. Then Devyn started hugging me so did the whole friend group and this made me feel werid I didn't know what was going on.

They don't normally do this...? Colby's never this distant as well...I'm so confused. Colby pulled me closer to him as he saw the halls fill with more people and Corey started making jokes.

"Yo Sam. You know you should really try gain some weight it's not hard" he laughed with Jake I tried to ignore it but nothing was working. "Yeah like no need to be scared of food" Jake joked then Elton stepped in.

"Jake Webber and Corey Scherer. Stop right now you have no right to say that to him and if I hear any sort of things again I will be talking to you both." He demanded even I was scared.