First Dance

Without You

'If winter's way to her it finds in time, her first dance will be her last. The icy fingers of winter's chill, her tender heart it grasps. For love, she fights winters cold embrace and opens her eyes to see his loving face.'

Yoongi rushes into the room while Jin keeps the others in the living room. Jungkook, Jimin, and Tae are crying. The sobbing they hear coming from Namjoon breaks their hearts.

Yoongi's uncle rushes in, he has arrived minutes ahead of the ambulance crew. "I got here as soon as I could, where are . . . " He turns to the sound of Namjoon sobbing.

"Hana, Hana, please, please don't leave me!  I don't want to live without you! I can't live without you!"

He runs to where they are. Namjoon is holding your limp body in his arms crying and placing teary kisses on your head. You suddenly draw a deep, shallow breath and sigh, opening your eyes and looking up at your gentle giant. You had only lost consciousness due to the drop in oxygen level caused by your heart's erratic beating during the contractions.

"Joo, Jooni," you manage a weak smile, whispering, "Our baby is coming."

He cries, "My god, Hana, I thought I lost you!" He pulls you even closer.

Yoongi touches your shoulder and asks, "Hana, my uncle is here. Do you still want... ?"

He doesn't get to finish, "Yes -- hurry," you whisper out of breath.

Namjoon looks at Yoongi and his uncle and questions them, "Can you do it? Please tell me we have time."

Yoongi's uncle smiles reassuringly at them and says, "As long as you have the paperwork for me to sign after saying I do, we're good, and there are plenty of witnesses."

Namjoon looks at Yoongi urgently telling him, "Top drawer, desk, tan envelope."

Yoongi rushes to get the papers. As he hands them to his uncle, he tells him, "They have already signed it. It just needs your signature, Uncle."

You struggle to catch a breath as your tummy contracts. You beg your heart, 'Not now, please.'

His uncle glances over the certificate quickly. Yoongi's uncle, who understands the urgency of the situation, quickly recites the words you both need to say. Finally, the part you waited for the most has come. You slowly inhale and breathe out the words that will change your life and those of your baby forever.

 You whisper, "I do." 

Within minutes, you are his wife, and Namjoon kisses you tenderly, saying, "I love you, Hana."

"I love you too. I have  . . . my first kiss . . . as your wife." It is becoming harder to catch your breath.

 You draw in a breath, "Now may I have." You pause to draw in another breath . . . "My first dance?"

The ambulance paramedics arrived and rushed down the hall to enter the room. Yoongi stops them just at the threshold and swiftly speaks to the crew.

"Can you please give them this moment and let him carry her out?"

The lead paramedic, knowing Hana, sympathetically replies, "Yes. My crew is aware of her condition. But first, I must place the monitor's leads on."

Yoongi nods and steps aside. "Namjoon, Hana, she needs to place the leads for the monitor before you carry her out." Namjoon nods, and the crew member quickly gets things done.

She smiles at you and squeezes your hand, saying, "Have your first dance, Hana, but I have to follow along with the monitor."

You weakly nod and whisper, "Thank you."

"We understand," says Namjoon.

With heartfelt emotion, he asks, "Ready, sweetheart?"

You weakly whisper, "Yes."

"Come my little armful, let me dance with you."

Namjoon holds you in his arms as he slowly dances from the room. The paramedic holds the monitor as she follows.

When you reach the living room, all the boys' eyes widen at the sight of Namjoon dancing with you in his arms, and their eyes start to overflow with tears. Taehyung quickly gets his phone out to record one of the most beautiful sights he has ever seen, knowing you will want to keep this memory.

"I didn't know he knew how to waltz," says Jimin in amazement, wiping his eyes.

Knowing they wanted him to sing Euphoria for their first dance at the wedding, Jungkook tries to sing it now but is too choked up. With tears in his eyes, J Hope starts the song on his phone as Namjoon dances through the living room. Following closely behind the ambulance crew, all the boys try to sing Euphoria. With emotions running high, they can only manage to sing the chorus. With fate's timing, they finish the chorus just as they get you to the ambulance, where the stretcher is waiting.

Namjoon kisses you as he lays you down on the stretcher, and the crew makes sure you are secure before they lift you on the stretcher into the back of the ambulance.

Namjoon still has a hold of your hand, and as it slips from his, he says, "I love you, wife."

You smile, releasing a sigh as you study his loving face. You place a hand on your tummy as another contraction begins, and your heart starts to skip, and you have trouble catching your breath.

Seeing your heart activity on the monitor, the paramedic shouts, "We have to go NOW!" and they swiftly place you in the ambulance.

Namjoon is quickly forced to leave the ambulance as the crew takes over caring for you. The last thing you recall seeing is the panic in your Jooni's eyes.

J Hope and Jungkook take Namjoon gently by the arms and lead him to the waiting suv to follow the ambulance to the hospital.

Yoongi is talking with his uncle, ensuring everything is handled and in order.

"Is it official now, uncle?"

He places a warm hand on Yoongi's shoulder, saying, "In every way possible."

The ambulance, with its sirens blaring rapidly, pulls off. Yoongi thanks his uncle as they both leave, Yoongi to go to the hospital and his uncle to the local district office.

Yoongi runs to his car only to see Jungkook standing on the other side. He asks, "Why haven't you gone with the others?"

Yoongi begins unlocking the door to get in, he pauses waiting for Jungkook's answer.

"I, I couldn't go with them. I, it hurt so much seeing hyung crying like that." Jungkook wipes tears from his face. "I, I just couldn't."

Yoongi runs to the other side of his car and grabs Jungkook in his arms, comforting him by saying, "Bun, it's okay. It's okay." 

He pats Jungkook's back as he holds him, hoping that it will truly all be okay. He gives him a minute and then says, "Get in the car, Bun. Let's go."