♡Our Love♡/ /Monika x !Fem Oc!//♡

10: You're The Reason I get Up

A/N: Thanks so much guys, at this point idk what to say but enjoy.<3 (also my friend found out about this story send help.)

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Monika's POV:

Well, I don't know where my life is going. In 6 more months I'll be graduating and I have nothing so far on my mind I wanna do for my future. Besides writing literature I have had this love for playing the piano. It relaxes me when I'm stressed. At home all I can think about is playing the piano when my mind isn't on Celeste or The Literature Club. 

But..

I wanna be in a world where nothing is a lie.

I want to experience the truth.

Yes I have someone by my side so far who may or may not be a real person but. 

I want the real thing, so far I'm trying really hard to contact the reality but yet I'm always faced with the realization that I'll never leave the simulation I created inside of my own head. Nothing's new. I wake up from my deep sleep I wish that could last forever. Say good morning to my "older brother" that may or may not be there, and the only reason to keep going is my.. Celeste. The one I love, the one I care for, the one I need to survive for both me and her.

I still need to plan things in order to find myself again. To see the real me. The real me. Not just a simulation where I pretend to love life

I repeat the same process that I call life. It so far went well I am happy about that...If you can even call that happy.

I catch the nearest bus and sit quietly with my school bag hanging on my shoulder. All I can think about is Celeste. Suddenly my stop comes up quickly and snaps me out of my thoughts. I sigh as I get off my seat. I grabbed the strap of my school bag and tightened my grip around it. It's something I picked up from Celeste. Now I can't stop doing it.

She has affected the way I do things in life. But it's okay, I don't mind since i'm so obsessed with her after all. As I got into the school building and walked to class. Yes I was a bit late, but so be it. I didn't care anyway. 

"MONIKA! You're very late! Take a seat." Oh I forgot how annoying my first period teacher's voice is. I sit down quietly. It wasn't that hard to catch up on what we were doing today. I'm just lucky i didn't get detention for being late.

_Timeskip to lunch_

I do as I always do for lunch time. I go and grab the free food and try to find the rest of The Literature Club. And if I can't find them I just sit at a random table and not even touch the food on the tray. All I do is look down and space out. I didn't even bring my phone that day, it was dead anyway. I looked up as I heard shuffling.

"Celeste?" I asked. I mean I was glad she was here but why didn't I find her before?

"Hey, Moni!" Again with that silly nickname..Is this gonna be a recurring thing? 

"Aren't you gonna eat?" Celeste looked genuinely worried.. I guess I haven't eaten in a while...Huh..

"Oh nah, you can if you're hungry though!" I say with a smile on my face.

"No thanks, why didn't you join lunch with us?" Celeste says. 

"Oh.. I just didn't see you guys, so I just sat down at a random table."

"Alright..Don't you wanna come sit with us though?" Celeste asked in that..Tone again..Stop being worried about me..

"The bell is gonna ring anyway.. I don't-" I was about to say something I don't even know where I was going with that sentence to be honest.