Primrose

Chapter 2

I finally get to my apartment, tired AF with my arms and shoulders feeling like they are about to fall off because of all these bags. Anywho going to the grocery store had a lot of good to it other than the obvious (groceries), I got to go on a little drive to see my area, met some new people and I think I have a new friend.

Honestly I don't think I can stress enough how good it feels to be here and now, living this life. Whenever I think back to how I grew up, my childhood and the people I grew up around, it literally brings tears to my eyes but I also realize that I had to go through all that struggle in order to get to this joyful and highvibe place in my life.

With that being said I have to unpack my groceries, clean up around, take a shower and write a to do list for all the things I need to get done tomorrow. I know at the top of my head I have to write a resume/CV in order to start applying for jobs, I am so excited and ready to be an independent girl that makes her own money!

The next morning

Rise and shine! Yesterday I fell asleep so late, I mean yeah I was a productive girl you know, cleaned up, wrote my to do list and took a shower buuttt I also ended up binge watching my favourite kdrama My love from the star and fell asleep around 12:30 am sooo yeah but that was yesterday and this is today so moving on.

Right now I have to make breakfast, I literally cannot get anything done without food in my stomach, I mean I gotta get the energy from somewhere to have a fresh and powerful start. Also I have a few things to do today, first one is finding an internet café so I can rewrite my CV an certify my documents because the sooner I get a job the better for me.

At this point I'm not picky with the job but I swear if I could choose, working at a library or a bookstore would literally be a dream! Plus meeting people and possibly making friends with people who enjoy reading would be a cherry on top, but chances of that happening are (not to be too much of a pessimist) slim to none cause a lot of the ones I've come across require experience which I don't have. I mean the only experience I have is from working at a call center but Lord I'd rather chew glass than go back there.

I mean working at that place was absolute hell, the anxiety I felt everytime I stepped foot into that building was just too much. The pay was not enough for the emotional trauma that I experienced on the daily, constantly having to meet targets by selling a million decoders a day. The customers were rude, I stuttered a lot and in the end after being there for 3 and a half months I sold a total of 2 decoders ( pathetic I know). That is literally the only job I have ever had in my entire existence, all the other years I was just an unemployed bum.

I am hopeful though that things are going to turn for the better, I mean finding a job, saving money and starting college next semester. I am really excited for all of it but I know it's gonna be a bit tricky since I'll be distance learning and working at the same time because I will be paying for my own tuition fees.

The course I applied for is BA in Communication Sciences and Economics 3 years, and I got accepted so now I just have to come up with the money for my registration which is in 2 months. I mean I do have the money but I do need a job in order to be able to sustain myself for the long run.

I honestly feel so scared but so excited for the positive change in my life. Anyway now that I have completed my morning routine (exercised, ate, fed my precious and showered) I'm ready for the day ahead. I also have to take my love bug for a walk later so she can get some fresh air, for the past few days she has either been in a car or apartment so I know she's not too delighted with me because where we lived she went on walks daily.

Driving is literally so therapeutic for me I enjoy it so much, listening to songs or a podcast. What doesn't make it fun though is the taxi drivers on the road, they drive like everyone on the road has extra lives to spare. Speeding like we are on the set of Fast and the furious 5, it's honestly insane but ke there's nothing we can about them sooo.