Primrose

Chapter 8

We finally gather ourselves and get ready to leave, Victor walks over to his aunt to say goodbye and then we walk out.

" My god it's so cold out here!" I am so grateful for his jacket because my thin strapped dress in this cold, no ma'am. We walk over to the car, he opens my door then goes over to his side enters and he drives.

I sit quietly and comfortably, thinking about tonight, my feelings and our conversation. Like I just met this man but I do badly want to be the woman of his dreams, the woman he spends the rest of his life with.

Just thinking about it makes me feel crazy but I can't seem to change how I feel, maybe it has to do with my past relationships that were so bad that now I have this kind man that's doing the bare minimum and I'm seeing us being together forever.

I look over at him and I wonder how things will be tomorrow, will we hang out or will we go back to those brief interactions when we bump into each other. He looks at me, smiles and I just turn my head to look at the window.

He laughs, " You can look at me you know, I don't mind " I turn and look at him, " I wasn't looking at you, I was looking past you" I respond.

" You were looking past me huh?"

" Yes past you. At the uh.. the window, it looks nice"

Tf am I saying?!

" Looks nice hmm okay." He shakes his head and laughs. " Well then I have to say I'm a bit hurt that you find the window more appealing to look at than me"

I just shake my head and laugh, he plays the radio and Victoria Monet song On My Mama starts playing. That song always has me hyped, it really has me feeling myself and I love it.

We finally reach my apartment building and Victor offers to walk me to my door. We walk into the building and get into the lift, then we go up. The whole time it's quiet and peaceful, silence with him feels safe and comfortable.

The elevator reaches my floor and we step out, " You know you didn't have to go through so much trouble, I would have been completely fine even if you had just dropped me off and left." We walk slowly side by side and the closer we get to my door the more sad I feel.

" I know that you would've been safe but I wanted to make sure that's why I accompanied you to your apartment and I'll always do so."

" Thank you that's very kind of you, I appreciate it."

We reach my door and I turn to him, " Well this is me." He smiles, looks at me then comes closer and leans in-

Oh my god!!

To kiss my forehead and then he steps back.

Nevermind false alarm.

" Please go inside, I'll leave only after you've entered and locked the door. " He is such a beautiful man, inside and out.

" Okay goodnight and thank you again."

" Goodnight to you too and I'll see you tomorrow."

I wave at him then I walk inside and then I lock the door. I hear his footsteps and I let out a deep breath out. I walk over to the bathroom to take a shower first because I need to get warm and wear some comfy clothes.

As I take my clothes off I realize that I didn't give Victor his jacket back, I'll have to return it to him tomorrow. I finish taking a shower, lotion my body, put on my sweats and go to sleep.

***** knock knock*****

What in the world?!.. It's 1 am!!!

I wake up to knocks on the door, who the hell could that be and why? I can't stand to have my sleep disturbed, it just makes me foggy and cranky for the rest of the day. As I get closer to the door I hear a voice on the outside, right now I wish had that peephole thingy on the door.

" Who is it?" I place my ear on the door to listen.

" Rose it's me Eric." I get a response. I open the door and standing in front of me is Eric drenched to the god's with red and puffy eyes.

" Oh my god, what happened? Come in." I let him in, close the door and I rush to go get him a few towels. "

You're so wet, did you walk home?" I wrap one on his shoulders and I use the other one to dry his hair.
 
" I think it's best if you take a shower so you can warm up on the inside." I take his hand and pull him to the bathroom. The whole time he's so quiet, sad and looks utterly broken.

I am scared to even ask what happened, maybe it had to do with his boyfriend and they had a fight or something. I get him a robe because really there's nothing else I can give him to wear.

I leave the robe in the bathroom and I go to the kitchen to make him some noodles, even I'm craving some. After 10 minutes he steps out of the bathroom and he comes to the kitchen, still quiet with that distant look on his face.

" Hey do you mind giving me your keys so I can run next door and get you some clothes?" I ask him.

He looks at me with a sad smile, " You don't have to trouble yourself, I'll just go and change there. You've done enough already despite me showing uninvited and unannounced, so I think it's best I leave"

I walk up to him and I hold his hand,
" Nonsense, I don't mind at all, plus I'd really feel at ease if you are here with me because the thought of you being alone tonight just doesn't sit right with me. You don't have to tell me anything but please just stay here, I want you to stay."

He nods and goes to the bathroom and comes back with the keys, he tells me how to open and where to find his stuff.

I serve him the noodles and make him a cup of tea then I walk out, I get to his place and open like I was told. I walk in and go straight to his room, I don't even stop look to see what his apartment is like. I get his stuff and leave, black Nike sweatpants, grey long sleeve t-shirt, black hoodie, socks and relay slides.

I return to my place and he's still eating and drinking tea, I give him his clothes and he goes to the bathroom to get dressed. He comes back and sits on the couch and continues eating, I serve my self and I join.

The silence is uncomfortable so I opt to play a movie, Nutty by nature. Something about animated movies that just hits the spot. I watch the movie while I eat, after some time I look at him and he looks to be enjoying the movie plus he has finished eating.

I finish eating then I get up and take our dishes to the kitchen, he says thank you. I come back to the couch and we continue watching the movie, as time goes on he loosens up and looks like he's feeling better.

He's smiling and laughing a bit, I'm happy to see it. We chill until 2:30 ish in the morning then the movie finishes, we get ready to sleep. He says that he'll sleep on the couch so I bring him a pillow and some blankets. We say our goodnights and I go to bed, I stay up for a minute before falling off to sleep.

The whole time I'm up I'm just thinking about my life and how much it's changed. I'm in a space that gives me peace and joy now, I am meeting new people and showing up as the best version of myself daily.

I am really grateful to God that this is where I am, looking back to where I was about a year ago physically, mentally, emotionally and even financially, a lot has changed for the good.

Now I have so much good going on and so much more good to come and I'm so excited. Like registrations are opening in a day and I'm so excited and ready to start studying, I'd also like to start a business possibly to sell hair because as much as I wanted a job I've realized that my dream is to be my own boss.

I've decided that instead of pouring so much energy into job hunting when I want I really want is to have my own business, it's a waste. Like I'm at a really good place financially, thanks to my late parents so there's no better time like now to work on making my dreams come true.

I'm praying that in the end I win but I also know that my God has brought me this far and he will continue to bless me going forward so I have nothing to worry about. I say a quiet prayer and then I drift off to sleep.

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