Screw Ups (Jake x Johnnie)

Nerves

AN- oh my god. almost 7k reads.
Tw-body image and scars

JOHNNIE POV:

Within the next two days, fans had gone insane. We saw so many edits of our posts, tons of comments asking about us, not that that was too out of the ordinary. Some people just assumed we were just making jokes like usual, but some people took it more seriously.

Jake made a short video just confirming that he was actually bisexual, and that post wasnt a joke or something, but i still havent.

I woke up in Jakes bed this morning, we had fallen asleep talking about how we are gonna announce our relationship. We decided to just make a video with a dumb title and just say it. We've been dropping tons of hints and people are suspecting it (more than they did before at least)

"Hey Johnnie" jake sat up, finally awake.

"Hey"

"You still wanna make the video today?" he asks

"Yeah if u do"

"alright.. yeah" Jake smiles and stands up, giving me a short kiss.

"Im gonna go shower"

"fuck i probably should too" i touched my messy hair, still stiff with hairspray.

"Do you wanna-um, just come with me?" He asks, clearly flustered. I feel myself blushing already, we had been together for about a week but never really did anything intimate.

"Oh? i mean sure" i stood up, grabbing his hand for a little help pulling myself up.

Jake gives me a little flirty smile, walking to the bathroom with me.

JAKE POV:

I wasnt really planning to say that. I mean, not like i hadn't considered it before, but still, wasnt my plan for the morning.

My body tingled a bit the more i thought about what i was doing. For most people, this wasnt huge, but Johnnie and I had been taking things sort of slow, since our relationship had somewhat of a rough start.

Johnnie closed the bathroom door behind us as i grabbed two towels, before turning on the water.

"Music?"

"yeah"

I open my phone and turn on my main playlist, consisting mostly punk-rock music, instinctively pulling off my shirt as if it was a normal shower.
My eyes quickly dart to Johnnie, who seems to have grown as nervous as me, his arms wrapped around his stomach.

"You okay babe?" I toss my shirt on the floor.

"huh? oh yeah" Johnnie seems as if he was zoning out or something, im not sure.

JOHNNIE POV: (tw)

Jakes seen me shirtless before. Hell, hes seem me in nothing but underwear. Still, the common anxiety i have about showing my body was there.

Its been getting alot better, ive been so much less insecure about my body and scars that usual recently, but the voice in the back of my head still rang. That 1% of my brain still told me 'what if he thinks youre ugly? i bet he thinks those scars are disgusting' even if logically, i knew that couldnt he true.

"You okay babe?" jakes voice snaps me out of it.

"huh? oh yeah." is all i can say.

Jake looks a little nervous too, i wonder why.

"Johnnie if you like.. you know dont wanna um- go together its totally fine" He looks so flustered its fucking adorable.

"No its not that" My eyes travel up and down his shirtless body. Hes so perfect how could he ever find me attractive?

"You sure? whats wrong?"

"Its stupid dont worry about it."

"No, come on tell me i swear its not stupid."

Should i just tell him? no, it's embarrassing as fuck. But hes my boyfriend, and my best friend, im sure he would understand

"I just- ugh.." i take a deep breath. "I guess ive just been feeling sorta insecure about my body.." ew, i hate the way that sounds.

"Johnnie, youre so fucking gorgeous" He puts an arm around me before speaking again.

"And if you dont wanna like- get undressed thats okay. But i need you to know how attracted i am to you, you're so perfect."

I get that warm feeling again. My insecurities fading with his words.

"Jake youre so fucking sweet. I dont think you get how much you are to me"

"Come on, do you still wanna go, the waters running"

"Yeah. thank you." I reach to take off my hoodie.

JAKE POV:

Does Johnnie seriously not realize how literally perfect he is? Im obsessed with every single thing about him. his light blue eyes, his messy black hair, his tattooed and scarred arms, his unique voice, everything. I smiled as i saw Johnnie go to take off his top, knowing that my words meant at least a little to him.

I take off my pajama pants, suddenly feeling a lot less anxious about the whole situation than before.

I stepped into the shower, the water was already warm as it had been running for a while. I stood under the warm stream for a second while i waited for Johnnie to step in. I just knew i had to be blushing as i accidentally looked him up and down when he entered.

His arms were folded over his stomach again, and he looked down.

"Johnnie, i promise its okay." I go to grab his hands.

"I know." He grabbed back.

JOHNNIE POV:

My heart was fucking pounding. Im so fucking in love with Jake its insane. I cant seem to take my eyes off his long, black hair, or the little star tattoos on the bottom of his stomach.

I wrap my arms around his waist and kiss him lightly

"You're the most perfect person ive ever seen you know"

Jake blushes at my sudden boldness.

"Wheres this coming from?"

"Doesnt matter" I kiss him again, but this time he places a firm grip on the back of my neck, kissing me passionately as the water ran down over us.
Before i even realized, Jake had me backed up against the cold shower wall, kissing me and running a hand up and down my arm. I flinched, remembering the two-week old scars lining it. A small wave of insecurity washed over me once again, and i accidentally pulled away.

"Sorry" Jake takes his hands off me.

"Hey, no, its okay." I place his hands back in place. Jake was probably the only person who i trusted to touch, or even just see my scars. He was there the day it happened, and i want him to be here now.

JAKE POV:

Im always nervous that im coming on too strong. As Johnnie directed my hands back into place, my anxiety seemed to cease. He smiled gently as me and kissed me again, warm water running down over us.

"You are so perfect" I tell him once again, holding his thin frame.

"I love you."

My heart basically beats out of my chest. I love you.

"I love you too."

I kiss his wrist as he runs his hand through my wet hair. 'A Match into Water' is the next song on my playlist.

sorry the ending is rushed i got bored love u guys
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