someone to stay

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today we're having a games night.

i got changed and went down with leah to the room.

everyone was already there. i sat on a beanbag and leah sat between my legs.

we played truth or dare.

everyone went round and gave each other dares.

"jordan would you ever get back with an ex"

she looked at leah.

"yes" she said.

my grip on leah got tighter. the girls started looking between me leah and jordan.

well this is awkward.

"your mine" i whispered in her ear.

"yours and yours only" she whispered back.

i smiled and pressed a kiss to her neck. keira looked at us with a smile.

"rosa are you only a disappointment to your dad or does your mum hate you aswell" jordan said

this bitch.

"fuck off jordan" i said.

"nah im just curious. or is she too much of a bitch to say anything to you" she continued.

i stood up and so did she.

"don't say anything about my mum" i said.

"ro stop. calm down" leah said, holding my hand from the beanbag.

i can't calm down.

"your a little screw up. we all know it" she spat.

"jordan i suggest you shut your mouth" i said

"rosa just ignore her" lucy said.

"come on rosa this isn't worth it" georgia said.

i moved to sit back down.

"what, scared like your bitch mum" jordan said.

i swung and punched her face.

everyone gasped.

she swung but leah stood up between us and jordan hit her instead.

everyone gasped again.

i looked at leah's face. there's a tiny bit of blood at her lip. she looks okay, just quite taken aback.

i moved towards jordan and grabbed the neck of her shirt. i pushed her against the wall.

"stay the fuck away from me. stay the fuck away from leah and don't speak about my mum" i said.

i let go of her and walked out the room.

i went out to the pitches and found the little opening of the fence to the woods.

i walked through it and went to the lake. i sat on the edge and sighed.

i started thinking about what jordan said.

maybe i am just a screw up. maybe my mum does think im a disappointment.

i felt someone sit beside me.

leah put her arms around me and kissed my head. i leaned my head on her shoulder.

"you okay baby" she asked.

"mhm"

"really? you can talk to me love" she said.

"le i'm fine" i said. "it's just the shit she comes out with. i try to hide it and not appear weak but sometimes it gets to me. or makes me think that what she's saying is true. like i am a screw up or my mum does hate me but puts on a face and pretends like she loves me"

"baby you don't have to put on a brave face all the time. your allowed to feel. you can speak to me about how your really feeling. if your hurt or upset, i'm here to listen and help you." she said.

"but you should know, your not a screw up. your one of the best people i've ever met and im so fucking lucky to have you. i'm so fucking lucky that your mine. and your mum absolutely does not hate you. she loves you more than anything. i see it in her eyes, and the way she cares for you" she said.

"thanks leah. your the best thing that's ever happened to me" i said.

"oh how's your lip?" i asked. "she didn't hurt you too bad did she?"

"my lip is fine baby. don't worry about me" she said.

"how can i not worry about the woman i love. especially when she got punched by her ex" i said.

"i mean, it's not like she was aiming for me" leah teased.

"yeah baby. you shouldn't have stepped in the way. the punch was for me so it should have been me to take the hit" i said.

"baby id take all the hits for you" she said.

"but you shouldn't have to. i'd rather it be me getting hurt than you" i said. "don't want your pretty face getting ruined"

"what about your pretty face" she said.

"forget about my face. you are so beautiful" i said. i touched the little cut at her lower lip with my thumb and traced across it.

i kissed her lips and we stayed there for a while.

"we should head back" leah said.

we got up and walked back, hand in hand.

when we got inside, we walked straight to leah's room.

"girls i'm gonna switch, im going with jordan. i can't stay in here any longer with you two. i'm scared ill see or hear something traumatic and not be able to look at yous the same. there have been some very close calls" beth said.

"alright hun. can you bring my things here from jordan's. i've left everything in my suitcase, just my trainers are on the floor" i said.

"yeah of course love" she said.

we went inside and got ready for bed.

beth came back a while later to give me my suitcase.

"goodnight girls" she said.

"night hun" i said.

"night night love" leah said

she left and we came inside.

we got in our pyjamas and brushed our teeth and then got into leah's bed.

she lay on top of me and put her face in my neck. i kissed her head and played with her hair.

"baby i love your hair. it's so soft" i said.

"i love you" she mumbled against my neck.

"i love you more" i said.

i continued to run my fingers through her hair while also massaging her head.

she moaned and mumbled into my neck.

"you like that?" i chuckled.

"mhm"

"no words for me baby?" i laughed.

"i love your hands" she mumbled. "they make me feel so good"

"in more ways than one" i teased.

"don't turn this into something else when you know what i meant" she said.

"i know what you meant darling" i said.

"mhm"

i kissed the top of her head.

"night my love. sleep well" i said.

"night baby" she mumbled.