chan's pov
i woke up to changbin's message and i was estatic. after yesterday i was worried he overheard me and felix. i was explaining how instead of putting my feelings aside i was going to try it with him.
i was going to try and wear my heart on my sleeve. i was worried he heard me, but didn't look interested in our conversation in the slightest.
i would normally throw on whatever i saw first, but i wanted to look nice when i saw him. i walked into my dreaded math class, counting down the minutes until i saw him. part of me felt it was too soon to be excited about us hanging out, but i wanted to be a new version of myself that allows my emotions to flow freely.
when my class was over i walked to the studio, noticing changbin was already there. "hi" i said, making him turn around. "hey" he smiled. we sat down at the nearby chairs. our assignment was to work on a song displaying any love or sadness.
"which emotion did you pick?" i asked. "sadness.. you?"
"love" i say with emphasis, hoping he'll take the hint. changbin nods obliviously, chewing at his bottom lip. suddenly we're back where we started. an awkward silence filling the studio. i decide getting some food in our systems might change that.
"how about i go run and get us some snacks?" i ask with a grin. "yes please!" he softly bounces in his seat. "don't worry, hyung will take good care of you" i laugh, running out the door.
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changbin's pov
my cheeks heat up at chan's last words. my mind is filled with snapshots of my dream from last night. i shake my head, praying they go away.
when he's gone i decide the best way to get over him is to just be normal. if i stop treating him like a crush maybe the feelings will banish.
chan comes back with donuts and iced coffee. once we eat our energy increases instantly. he somehow convinces me to go into the booth and freestyle just for fun. "you ready?" he asks. "ready, sir" i giggle out, pretending he's an actual producer.
"don't stop calling me that" he winked. i playfully roll my eyes, ignoring the blush i feel appearing. "okay.. i got this.." i whisper to myself. the beat plays and i start off slow. i look out to see chan's big smile. it only encourages me to continue.
when i walk out of the studio he's appluading with the fondest look in his eyes. if he looks at me like this just for rapping well, i can only imagine how much love is in his eyes when he sees the person he's interested in.
"you're seriously so talented" he said with awe.
" you are too! next time we come here you're singing" i reply.
"there's gonna be next time?"
"well duh.." i smile.
"good. i'd like that" he replies barely above a whisper.
we say our goodbyes and i smile for nearly my whole walk. unfortunetly his sweet and encouraging words only made me more attracted to him, but i was just glad i learned how to push them away and be normal around him. maybe just being friends wouldn't suck as much as i thought.
A/N : long chapter for the holidays ! i hope you have a good holiday season :D
