Just sex; 5sos

6.6

Adrielle's POV

Tonight's my night with Ashton and to me it is going to be weird as fuck, he's like my big brother I never had or my best friend.

Maybe it will just be weird for me. He's the one paying me to have sex with him, I guess I'll just have to put my feelings aside.

Sometimes I wish I could be normal, fall in love, settle down in a nice big house, have a family of my own.

Instead I'm stuck with just sex.

Maybe just sex?

Or....maybe not.

I've been growing increasingly unhappy with my life and choices.

"C'mon, Adrielle, let's go babe." Ashton calls through my closed hotel room door.

I pull on a Hoodia and slip my phone into the pocket. I plaster a fake smile on my face and open the door. A smiling Ashton engulfs me into a big hug and kisses the top of my head, "Excited for tonight?" He whispers, the smirk audible in his voice.

"Of course, Ash." Pulling away and smiling.

Reaching up on my tip toes I peck his lips, "Where are we going?" I ask grabbing his hand.

"I thought we could go hang out at the pool downstairs, but we'll have to go swimsuit shopping first." He smiles, pulling his hood over his eyes and putting on sunglasses, I do the same as we go outside to the rental car they got yesterday.

"Where do you wanna go?" He asks when we turn onto the freeway.

"Do they have any malls here?" I ask, I've never been to Australia as I was born and raised in California.

"Babe, this is Sydney, of course we have malls." He switches lanes and within 15 minutes we pull into the parking lot. The mall is huge, large glass windows covering the front entrance. I see an outlet sign that reads Forever 21, and I assume that's where we're headed. We climb out, his hand immediately interlocks mine.

The store smells like plastic, but the bikini's are cute, and pretty cheap. I pluck a hot pink top off of the rack, and Ashton picks out black bottoms thst barely cover my ass. I try them on, and invite him onto the changing room to see. "Uhm," he pushes his hands over his crotch, and his face turned red. "You look very good Adri. Like, really hot." He giggles. I smile and try to kick him out, but he refuses. "I'll just sit in here, no big deal." I shrug and begin to take off the small clothes.

"Do you also wanna get a sundress or something to go over it?" Ashton asks.

"Sure." I say, "I'll just throw on my clothes and then we can go look."

I find a skimpy flowy crop top with sunflowers on it and grab it in a small, I also grab a pair of high waisted shorts with the same print. Ashton follows me into the dressing room again as I try on the outfit which fits perfectly and looks great, Ashton makes a comment on how nice the shorts make my ass look.

Ashton leans against the wall watching me with his arms crossed and his bottom lip between his teeth.

"Do you want something from me?" I ask looking at him in the mirror with a smirk.

"No, I just think you're beautiful." He chuckles.

"I'm not beautiful." I mumble.

"What the hell? Of course you are!" His arms wrapped around me in seconds.

"I'm a slutty whore." I sob into his chest.

"You don't have to do this, none of us are making you, we don't want you to be in over your head or do anything you're not comfortable with." He tilts my chin up.

"I'm broke, I don't have a job, a house, a car, I don't have anything, Ashton." I look down.

"It's gonna be okay, you have us to take care of you, your pain isn't gonna last forever, we're here for you always, even when it's all over." He rubs my back.

"Thank you Ash, you're amazing." I whisper, changing back into my clothes. I don't know where this sudden emotion flooded in from, but I haven't felt this shitty since first agreeing to be the boy's personal slut.

It's not easy, and I'm glad at least one of them sees that. "Adrielle?" Ashton speaks with cate clear in his tone.

"Yeah Ashton?" I fold the clothes neatly.

"Do you want to do this? I mean, fuck me? Because if you don't, if it's too awkward we don't have to." He looks down.

"Ash, it's not that I don't want to have sex with you because I do, but you're like a best friend I never had. It's a far shot. Okay? I try to explain it in the nicest way.

"I understand." He smiles, but I know it's a smile of sadness.

We buy the clothes, and head back to the hotel. The pool is glowing, and Ashton slowly walks in the water. "Adri, come on." He laughs and winks. I slowly climb in and Ashton studies my facial expressions as the cold water etches up my body.

"It's so cold!" I whine, and Ashton hides a smile. Suddenly, a huge hits me. He laughs, and I head over to him, wrapping my legs around his waist. I attempt to pull him down, but he's too strong. He pushes me into the water, but I pop back up and connect our lips. He kisses back, and I like this.

We aren't having sex, just a simple kiss.

He smiles against my lips, and I open my eyes. My fingers run through his wet hair, and I finally realize....

Maybe, just maybe, Ashton's the one.