Midnight thoughts 💋

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A part of growing up I never really put that much effort into understanding or improving my knowledge on romantic relationships
Like yes everything looks all cute and it's a fairytale dream come true.
But the thing is is it's not, it's not all rainbows and sunshine's. .love is both heaven and hell. Most people find hell before they find heaven but me I find myself in purgatory - just stuck waiting for something or someone I'm not sure off. To be honest yes the thought of finally letting my guard down enough to be seen with all my flaws seemed terrifying at first but now even getting someone to actually understand what you are saying and to  hear you is its own mission. Heaven seems so glorious, a place I want to where I'm safe, stress free , loved unconditionally with a passion for companionship. But hell is lust, greed, possession and a taste danger however it draws you in because of the thrill. But me I've never experienced both and hated both because I knew it wasn't real. Even the devil could make anyone feel safe if he tried. Until my eyes open and finally I realised I never wanted heaven or hell I just wanted....a moment that could last forever it it doesn't have to be perfect it just has to feel okay.

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