Moonlight: Stars, Eclipses, & Full Moons

Over and Over Again

Kyungsoo's POV

I've never been one to add special meaning to specific dates or points in time. Mostly because all of the meaningful times in my life have been meaningful in more of a traumatic way than in a positive, reminiscent way. But being with Jongin changed that, as it did a lot of other things too. I started looking forward to anniversaries and birthdays just because my life felt full again, and I actually had a family to celebrate with. I still didn't make a huge deal out of them out of fear, but it was always nice to see how excited Jongin got about them and hear about all of the outlandish plans he made for that day. 

Over time, as the years started to wear on my mind, I took up the habit of writing down notes on a calendar I kept in our bedroom. I stored all of the important events there and, eventually, even the small ones that were more prone to vanish from my memory at any given time. So, I woke up one morning and checked it as soon as I got out of bed and saw that it was Jongin and I's wedding anniversary. I noticed a little asterisk by my note, which stood as it was in red while mine was in black, with the number 25 next to it followed by three exclamation points. I chuckled endearingly, thinking back to the day a few weeks ago when I caught him writing something on there and connecting the dots. I got dressed before I went downstairs in preparation for some grand surprise, but when I got down there, nothing seemed out of the ordinary. No over-the-top decorations were hung up, and he wasn't dressed up in some fancy suit at 9 in the morning, ready to whisk me away for the day. It made my brow furrow, but even stranger was the odd twisted feeling I felt in my gut.

Still, I figured maybe he was going for something more laid back this year and proceeded on with my morning as usual. I took my daily medicine and then started to make coffee, and that was when Jongin came out from the pantry holding a roll of paper towels. "Oh, morning, baby," he said. If he was hiding anything, there was no sign of it in his voice or facial expression. He joined me in the kitchen and replaced the empty roll on the holder by the sink with a full one. "Sleep okay?"

"Yeah, I think so..." I replied cautiously, still trying to analyze him and still failing because he just smiled at me. 

"Good. I was worried that new medication might disturb your sleep. I still don't understand why you have to take it so late in the day," he said as he tossed the replaced roll into the trash. He turned to me next and slid his hand across my upper back until it stopped to rest on my shoulder. "You want some breakfast? I can attempt to make you an omelet even though I can't guarantee it'll look like one by the time it's ready."

"...sure. Sounds good." I tried to smile and not let the confusion on my face show too much, and it seemed to work because he said okay and kissed me before taking a few steps over to the fridge. I watched him take all of the ingredients out of the fridge and was slowly becoming more and more baffled. "Do we have anything going on today?" I asked, attempting to pull the truth out of him in case he was pulling some kind of prank. 

"Um, let me think." He stopped what he was doing and had the audacity to genuinely look like he was thinking hard. "Not really, no. Xiumin said something about a small hunt today, so depending on how that goes, we might have everyone over for dinner tonight if that's okay. Why? Did you have something else in mind?"

I was actually floored, astonished by the scene that was being set up in front of me. The man who insisted we celebrate the anniversary of the day we met, the day we mated, and the day we got married separately had seemingly forgotten what today was. I couldn't tell if it was a joke and if any minute, he'd laugh and call me cute for pouting so early in the morning, but if it was, I doubt I would have been laughing very much in return. 

"Nope, dinner sounds fine," I said, feeling myself become more annoyed. Could I have reminded him like a mature adult? Sure, but I didn't feel I should have had to and, in that moment, I was too upset to think maturely. So, I decided I'd forget it too and go about today as if it was just a normal day that didn't mean anything at all.