motherhood

pregnant

a/n:

this one was one of the first chapters i ever wrote.

excuse if it's awful

ava's pov:

i still can't even believe it.

at 16 years old, i was told by my doctor that i would never ever be able to have kids of my own.

that id never be able to carry my own babies.

but here we are, 4 years later.

me and billie are pregnant with our first baby.

im about 4 months in and feeling great. today is the day where we get to find out the gender.

"ready bil?" i ask her as i put on a small amount of makeup.

"yea, i'm ready. i just gotta put my hair up real quick, then we're good." she says as she grabs a hair tie, pulling her hair up into a messy ponytail.

"you look pretty." i say turning towards her.

"i look awful, what are you talking about?" she says chuckling.

"you are always beautiful to me." i say kissing her lips gently.

"thank you my love." she says smiling adorably.

"let's go you fool." i say as i head out of our room and to the garage.

"do you want a drink before we go?" i hear billie yell from in the kitchen from the garage.

"yes please!" i shout back, getting into the car, starting it up and turning on the heat.

it's freezing here where we live. i mean it is december and winter time.

soon after, billie gets into the passenger seat and straps herself in.

"ready to go see our baby?" i ask softly.

"ready." she says as i pull out of the garage, closing it and driving away.

i gently grab her hand, holding it in the middle of our seats.

we stay like that the whole drive.

~timeskip to the dr's office~

as i'm sitting in the waiting room, i'm getting really anxious.

what if they find something wrong with the baby?

what if something happens?

what if the baby isn't healthy anymore?

i start thinking about all the bad things.

right as i'm thinking all these scary thoughts, i feel a hand on my thigh, rubbing it soothingly.

"what's goin through your beautiful head? i can tell there's a lot happening up there." billie asks gently.

"what if the baby isn't healthy anymore and we loose it? what if-" i start rambling when i'm quickly cut off by billie.

"hey, no no, don't do that to yourself. it's okay my love. that's why we're here right now. we're gonna make sure the baby is healthy and growing. i'm gonna be right here the whole time." she says, making me nod, just then we hear the door to the office open.

"Ava and Billie O'Connel?" the Dr says, making us get up.

"we're ready for you ladies. you can just head back to room 3." she says, following us right behind.