And then she's gone.

You promised me you would only ever love me.

How could you break it?

I thought you cared for me...

Do you want to know why I died, Wren? I know it has been bothering you for a loooong time. The reason I died, Wren, was YOU.

My eyes flew wide open, and my head hit the desk.

I groaned, rubbing my head. I looked around. Miss Smith stood in front of my table, glaring at me. 'Good morning, Wren. Did you have a good sleep?' She snarled. The class snickered, and my face turned bright red. I took a peek next to me and met Lana's eyes. She pulled her hair and looked away. I looked back at Miss Smith, and replied;

'Yes, thank you.' She gritted her teeth like she was about to say something, then gave up and walked away. I could see Lana smile from the corner of my eyes, but she immediately stopped after noticing my eyes on her. My heart sank. How could I mess up everything I did?

Maybe because YOU are the mess.

YOU

YOU

YOU

Me. Me. I ruin everything. I was the cause of Elise's death, wasn't I? She never left a note, never told anyone why she had done it, not even Jules. Maybe...maybe it was me. Maybe she died, because of me.

There's no maybe in it, Wren. It was because of you.

My head started to hurt.

I clenched my forehead, eyes straining to see anything and then all became ...red, then blue, then white, and then.....Darkness.

Sheer darkness.

I waved my hands before me... trying to find something to hold onto.

'Hello? Is anybody there?'

A cold breeze touched my cheek. I stumbled forward, reaching towards a sliver of light. My feet tripped on something, and I looked down.  A pipe. I looked up again and gasped.

'No. No. this can't be happening! Not now, not again! PLEASE- SOMEONE - ANYONE- GET ME OUT OF HERE!!'

I fell on the floor of the roof, a roof I had been on before.

City lights twinkled below me, and my eyes blurred from the fast-approaching tears.

A door opened behind me, and I flinched.

A beautiful girl with long brown hair, in a white T-shirt and blue jeans, walked ahead of me. She stopped at the edge of the roof. She walked closer to the edge, closer, and closer, until- a voice stopped her. We both looked behind, only to find another girl, panting, and screaming something.

'ELISE- ELISE STOP! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? I LOVE YOU, HOW- WHAT?'

The girl ran towards Elise and pulled on her arm. Elise pushed her back. 'You wouldn't understand, Wren. I'm sorry, but I have to go.'

Wren replied in a weak, desperate voice;

'Elise. What are you doing? Of course, I'll understand. Just tell me anything! You don't have to go for this...come on!' Elise winced, then pulled Wren in for a hug. My heart beat faster, I knew what was coming.

Elise's tears soaked Wren's jumper, and then, with a grunt, she pushed Wren back,

and jumped.

I ran towards the edge, screaming, and screaming and SCREAMING my heart out to the world.

 I stood there, half my body leaning off the edge, waiting, just waiting for Elise to come back up and give me her soft smile, saying it was all just a dream. One minute, two. Ten minutes, an hour, two hours, five hours and then.... Nothing, but the faint sound of sirens in the distance. I looked up, my eyes red and burning. Another version of me did the same. Her hands were bloody from gripping the rough pipes, and her body was shaking. She was holding in so many tears that I knew would come later that night. At that moment, a thought would flash through her mind.

Maybe I should join her.

She would think about it for over an hour, and then walk away, leaving her heart shattered on the roof, never to be fixed again.

I couldn't do that. Maybe if I joined her now, in this reality, I could be close to her again. I shut my eyes as the memory me walked away, oblivious to what was about to happen. 

I took a deep breath, and then threw myself off the roof. 

Harsh wind whipped through my hair, my eyes stinging from the pressure. All I had ever wanted was to see her again, ask her why, why she did what she did.  My heart lurched, and I hit the ground. 

a sharp sound filled my ears 

everything was dark

I opened my eyes,

and sighed.

There I was, my head still on the desk, the classroom silent. I pulled my head up. Nobody was there. I was all alone. And still alive. 

too alive for my own good.