I think, I think, I think.
I think you are all I've wanted.
Or, I thought you were.
Now, all I think you are
5 is a distraction.
A distraction from the scissors
in the cup beside my bed.
I think, I think, I think.
I think you hurt me worse
10 than any blade ever could.
I think you are my self-harm.
Or maybe I'm just overthinking.
I love the way it feels to finally get away,
yet I miss the way you hurt.
15 I choke on your words,
waiting for them to finally take me out.
I think, I think, I think.
I think every night about the things
you did to me.
20 I think every morning about the things
you said to me
I think, I think, I think.
I think you're all I wanted.
Or, I thought you were.
25 Now all I think you are
is an alternative.
I deserve better,
which is exactly why I keep you.
Because you are my self-harm
30 You are my pills.
You are my blade.
YOU ARE READING
Misty Heart
PoesiaI wrote these poems about someone I love. I'm no longer with him, but they are about how I felt while I was with him. I still hold him close to my heart, no matter how badly he treated me. I loved him and I doubt that one day I wont.
