The boy who found me

chapter 6

TUCKERS POV

We made it through the front door, up the stairs, and into Rains room without getting caught from Broc. All the while i was having a heart attack because Rain was pulling on my hand to hurry me up the stairs while she was chewing on her bottom lip. She has always done that when she was nervous, I've always found that It was very distracting. I've dreamed of Rain pulling me up to her bedroom many times while i was gone, but those were intirely different cases and the dreams ended with my sheets sweaty and me breathing heavy. 

She shut the door behind us ,"Tuck, are you sure you want to risk your families safety? What if he comes looking for me and what if Aunty Nicola or Harper get hurt?"I could see in her eyes that part of her really wanted me to insist on her coming with me.

She looked down ,"You can't risk them getting hurt," I hadn't thought about my families safety. Shes right what if they do get hurt? I can't think about that right now. I'm not about to let her go like that.

"I don't care. There is no way im leaving you here," I looked down at her. Shes so beautiful ,"Red look at me, remember that oath that we made the day before I left?" 

She suddenly looked up at me with an expression that i couldn't read.

                                                                 *FLASH BACK*

When both the palms of our left hands were bleeding with the shape of a heart on it, we pressed  them  together to mix blood.

"Ow," I flinch, our bloods mixing stings.

"Im sorry, I know it hurts," Her face was all pinched up too.

"Whats the differents between this and a pinky promise?" I asked.

"This will make you remember me everytime you see the scar," she looked into my eyes.

I looked back into hers ,"Okay," was all I could say, she looked so sad.

"Repeat after me," the 10 year old Rain said. Even back then i thought she was cute with her missing teeth and pig tails.

"Yeah, yeah Red just get to the words,"  I wasn't a real gentleman back then.

She frowned at me but she kept on going with the original way she was going," 'I Tucker'," I lost my train of thought at how pretty she was. She punched me on the shoulder.

"ow! I was gonna say it Red! Jeez Louis!" I paused to give her a dirty look while i rubbed my shoulder ,"I Tucker" i said as i was putting our left hands back together.

" 'Promise that i will always be your bestfriend' " She smiled in a sad way.

"Promise that i will always be your bestfriend," 

" 'I promise to look out for you and always be there when you need me even if you don't want me to' " Her voice wobbled a little bit.

"I promise to look out for you and always be there when you need me," my vioce cracked ,"Even if you dont want me to,"

She swallowed ," 'And i promise to always love you, no matter what'," she wiped a tear away with her right hand.

This is when i finally accepted that i was possibly never going to see my friend again. I cried too , "And I promise to always love you, no matter what," 

I pulled her in for a hug and didnt let go until I had to get on the plane.  As i said goodbye to my other half I grabbed her hand and kissed her palm ,"I love you Red," our noses were red from crying.

"I love you too Tuck," Then i boarded the plane.

                                                         *END OF FLASH BACK*

She was still staring at me weird. I crossed the room and stood right infront of her. I looked down into her eyes and she looked up into mine. Then i grabbed her left hand into mine and brought it to my lips to kiss the heart shaped scar. She blushed and looked down.

I took her face into my hands ,"Please don't hide your face. I perfer to see it." When she uncovered her face i started again.

"Thank you. Anyways when we were ten, I made a promise to you that I would always be there for you, even if you don't want me to. Do you remember?" I searched her eyes as they skimmed over my lips. I got goosebumps at the thought of her wanting to kiss me.

" I remember it everyday when i see the scar" she was looking into my eyes too. I can hear her heart thudding in her chest. She was pushed up against the door and our chest were touching. I stroked her cheek. She closed her eyes while standing on her tippy toes and leaning her face up closer to mine. Our lips were so colse i just wanted to lean in and close the small space that was seperating our lips. The temptation to kiss her was so strong i almost gave in. Then i coughed a sigh. I can't cheat on Beth. Besides, Rain probably just wants to kiss me 'cuz she feels volnerable and what not.

" Um.. I think that maybe we should.. um... hurry up and get everything packed so that we don't get caught by Broc," Her eyes snapped open when i spoke and they looked so dissapointed.. And Humiliated. I hugged her ,"We need to hurry," when she nodded. i let go and we started getting her things packed.

*30 MINUTES LATER *

"Shhh! No, Tuck don't hit that stair it creaks-" It was too late she was whispering too loud and the stair creaked underneath of me. She stared at me with horror in her eyes ,"Oh shit," Never in my life, have i ever heard Red curse. Thats how i knew this was going to be serious.

The snoring stopped and the voice that followed after gave me chills and bad memeories, "Hey bitch, I thought you was comin home lastnight," she gulped. She put her index finger up to her mouth to signal me to be quiet ,"I didn't have my little hoe of a daughter to get my beers for me. I had to get them myself," He burped loud. What a pig ,"What the fuck is up with that?" 

She was shaking so bad that she had to bite down on her knuckles just so her teeth wouldn't chatter. I hated this. We were crouched down on the stair steps and involentary tears were streaking her face as she closed her eyes. I grabbed her hand that was clenched into a tight fist on her thigh and massaged it to make her relax.

Her eyes snapped open and i mouthed ,"You can do this."

She nodded at me and breathed heavy then wiped her face off. She took my hand as she stood up to face Broc. And You bet your ass that I'm going to be there for her the whole time. Because in that moment I realized that I love my bestfriend more than i should, because the thing is, i dont love her as a bestfriend and i never have. I love her as so much more.