The boy who found me

Chapter 8

Tucks Pov: 

It has been a whole month since Rain and I left Brocs house. We have been very distant and we haven't talked at all. She now lives with my family in our home. She talks to Mom and Harp a lot, but she doesn't even look at me and if she does look at me, then trust me its not in a good way. I dont know what I did wrong. Every time I try to talk to her she just walks up to her room and slams the door in my face. 3 weeks ago was the last time she talked to me. If thats what you want to call it.

*****************FLASHBACK********************

Rain was at the kitchen counter doing her math homework when I came home from work the other day. No one else was home but us, so thought it would be a good time to talk. When I walked in I said hi to her and she didnt answer. So after I shrugged my coat off and hung my keys up, I walked around the counter and sat right by her. She scooted to the next chair down. With a confused look on my face I stared at her for a while to see if she would make eye contact with me. Nothing.. Not even a little glance.

That obviously wasn't working, "Okay then," I said with a huff and moved into the chair that she was just  sitting in. I proped my head up on my hand and smiled at her, "So how was school today?" I asked

"Fine," her voice was cold and she wouldnt look at me.

I looked down at my watch and it was 6:54. School got out 3 hours ago. Maybe she needs help on her homework. 

After clearing my throat I said with a smile, "So um.. What are you working on?" 

With a sigh she flipped the page in her text book." What does it look like im working on Tuck?"

"Home work, right.." God.. I would do anything to make this less awkward. When she didnt reply for a few minutes I cleared my throat and tried again.

"Do you um, need any help? I'm pretty good at all that school stuff." I said as I scooched my chair closer to her so I could see what she was working on.

She quickly slammed her book shut, packed up all of her stuff and moved it to the living room.

     After watching her storm out, I stayed quitely in the kitchen for a while, looking at the floor for a long time. Pretty much studying it, seeing if I could find any answers in my reflection from the hard shiny wood floor.  Is it just me or does this feel like a completely one sided conversation? After sitting there for a while I got up and sat in the living room on the sofa across from Rain. The air was filled so thick with awkwardness. The silence was so freaking loud. I just had to break it.

"Wanna go down to Frugees after you're done with your homework? I'll pay."  I tried to lighten the mood.

"No."

Okay, she just flat out rejected a rootbeer float.. Thats how I knew something was wrong, still no eye contact whats so ever. Man this really sucks.. Maybe she wants to talk about the other day.

"Are you okay? If its about the other day then-"

"Oh my God," She whispered barely loud enough for me to hear her. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath as if it were the only thing keeping her from exploding on me.

I stared at her for a while. What is wrong with her? I just want to help. So what she did next both suprised me and made me wonder what all has happened while I was gone. She opened her eyes and they stared at me with the scariest look I have ever seen in my life. But what hurt the most, were the words that came after the stare.

 "Do you ever shut the fuck up?" We were making full on eye contact now, and i didn't like it. 

I just stared at her filled with shock. Why is she talking to me like that? Its like I dont even know her anymore. When we hit that sqeeky stair at Brocs was the first time i ever heard her curse and ever since then she has been bombing profanity left and right.

"I'm sorry. I really am Red. I don't even know what I did wrong," I paused to see if she would say something. But she didn't. So with a frustrated sigh I ran my fingers through my hair and said to her quitely, " I just want to know what I can do to fix it.."

No reply, But she was still staring at me and she was still very much upset. But the look in her eyes changed.. They weren't really scary anymore, They were sad and brimmed with tears. I couldnt take it anymore. I croseed the room and took her face in my hands. I felt the heat on her cheeks rise as her natural blush came. I have missed that so much the last 3 weeks. A single tear fell from her eye when she closed them and I brushed it away with my thumb.

I looked at her pleadingly and said, "Please Red, I just want to fix it.." she shook her head no and sniffled, "Please tell me what I can do to fix it." I just kept on staring at her, hoping that she would open her eyes.

   She brought her hands to rest ontop of mine she took a deap breath and stepped forward. She sighed my name and that triggered something. I tried to keep remembering that Mom and Harp would be home from Harps ballet practice soon. My whole body wanted her, my mind was thinking up a thousand different ways of how I was going to break up with Beth. Because I knew for sure that I loved Red and I wasn't going to be able to keep it a secret for any longer. She kept brushing her thumbs over my knuckles then she sighed my name again and nibbled on her bottom lip, and for a moment.. Just a moment, I thought that she was going to kiss me. I thought that we were finally going to be together and we weren't going to have any secrets anymore. I closed my eyes and started to lean in. Then we came back to reality.

When my lips didn't meet hers I opened my eyes and she was staring at me, her eyes still filled with tears. Her hands wrapped around my wrist and she yanked my hands away from her face. She stepped back and turned away from me, walking over to the couch to start packing everything up once again.

"Rain what's wrong? I just want to know so that I can help you." I said as she visioucly packed her school things.

"I just want to hel-"

"Stop." she said in a harsh voice. Then she stood up, and turned to look at me, "Please just stop." Her voice cracked.

I looked at her and this time I really looked at her and took her in. I felt terrible for pushing her into talking when she didnt want to. She looked exhausted, her eyes were rimmed red, her nose a bright pink. Her face was pale and her messy bun was falling out of place. She was wearing a long sleeved shirt (as always) and yoga pants. She wiped the underneath of her eyes with her shirt sleeve. Then she took in a deep breath and smiled in a sad way.

"Tuck, this all would be so much easier for both of us if you just stop. Okay? Please don't take it personal, its just that im not the same person that i used to be."

   I didn't know what to say so I stood there opening and closing my mouth.. Trying to think of one thing to say that will make all of this to go away. But I coudn't, so she turned around and grabbed her stuff.

Before she headed up to her room she stopped walking and turned her head sideways towards me. "Im sorry."

then she quickly headed up to her room leaving me truely broken hearted for the first time. When I heard her bedroom door slam shut, Mom and Harper came in through the front door laughing at something that Harpers ballet teacher did. I quickly slipped into my bedroom to avoid any questions.

****************END OF FLASHBACK*********************

 Rain and I haven't talked since then but I am determined that sooner or later I will make things better between us. And I am starting right now by calling Beth and breaking up with her. Then I will do everything in my power to win rain over.

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A/N: Hey guys so its been a while and im kinda rusty so sorry if this chapter totally sucks. Please tell me what you think and remember that i love you:)