The boy who found me

Chapter 12

*rains pov*

"Oh shit."

I felt like my heart had just dropped. Broc.. The man who beat me, raped me, forced me into prostitution. Who sat there and gave me advice on how to ediquitly commit suicide. The man who gave my mother AIDS and just let her die. My father.. He's dying.

I stood there in shock and astonishment as i tried to wrap my head around my feelings. This man disgust me. I have such a pationate hatred for him, its spread from the very tips of my toes to the scalp of my head. He is the reason i have hated myself for so long. So why in the hell is this affecting me? Why am i upset? I feel so light headed. i can feel Tucks eyes on me filled with concern but i cant muster up enough strength to tear my eyes off of the emptiness that filled the air. im staring at him but im looking right past him. I hesitated before i spoke. 

"He's dying?"  My voice even sounded choked up and confused to me.

"Red they said he only had hours left, if we're going to go see him we should go right now-"

"I dont want to go." I said with a stern voice.

"What?" Tuck sounded so confused.

"I said," i looked him straight in the eye and pronounced every word harshly at him. " I. dont. want. to. go." 

Tuck stared at me in disbelief, "But, he's your father.. you dont want to say goodbye?" Ahh yes, Broc is my "father", no fuck that.

"Dont you fucking dare Tucker. Dont you dare pull the father card out on me. After i told you some of the things he's done to me, you stil want me to go see him? Well fuck you Tuck." I absolutely can not believe that he is even doing this shit to me. seriously? how are you going to try to make me see him when i hate him.

Im done with feelings and emotions. i need to leave, i need to get out of here. I need to breath. I walked over to Tuck and snatched the car keys out of his hands, running out to the driveway towards to car before he could stop me. And the sad thing is, Tuck didnt even chase after me. Tears started streaming down my face. How could all this be happening? then i was startled by a voice when i was barely outside the car.

"Where are you going Laurana?" I stopped dead in my tracks. Nicola. I wiped furoshiuosly at my tears and faked a smile. too late she had already seen me crying.

"oh, um. Im just going on a drive real quick." i said nervously.

Nicola looked at me then looked back at Harper who was in the cars. "Sugar why dont you go on inside and tell Tuck to get your movie started? I'll be in in a sec." with a nod Harper went into the house. The Nicola walked up to stand with me.

"Now im going to ask you again Laurana, and dont you dare lie to me. Where do you think youre going?" There was no point in lying.

"Honestly i dont know. I need to get out of here. I just need to breathe. Everything is just so damn stressful." i look at her and took a deep breath, "Im just going to leave for a little bit."

"No you're not." she gentally said. "Get back inside, its time i sit you down and have a talk with you."

"Im sick of everyone trying to talk. i just need to be alone for a little bit. Is that too much to ask?"

"We're moving back to Tennesee." She said calmly then took a breath. "Go inside, we need to talk."

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A/N: okay, short chapter, i know im sorry. im just really busy lately. i hope you enjoyed reading. im not feeling to good about this chapter. oh well.