wilbur soot x y/n

chapter thirty-three

one week later.

Y/n POV:

Things were bit by bit going back to normal. As normal as that can be, anyways. People started streaming again sometime around a day ago. People were obviously concerned why we were gone for a week, but all was fine.

In all fairness, losing friends to suicide is scary. I know how it feels. Then again, I was the one who tried to kill myself this time.

"Please, I am begging you, Y/n, eat more than just a few bites of Mac and cheese!"

Karl. Sweet, innocent Karl. He was so scared, and maybe he's the reason why I pulled through. Him and all of the people who watch my streams. Him and Wil. Him and Tech. Him and Eret.Him and Niki.

I had no idea how much I had to lose until it was nearly gone.

"I'll try." I murmured.

Karl wore and new, soft smile. He looked happy when he smiled, no matter the situation. Even when his friend was refusing to eat.

"Thank you." Karl muttered, a new bounce in his walk as he stepped from my bed.

As he walked from my door, someone new came in. It was Niki with a forever shocked look imprinted on her face. She closed the door softly before pulling back the covers beside me, giving me a look that must've meant 'can I lay down,' which I responded with a large nod.

Niki wrapped an arm around me, pulling me into a soft hug.

"You doing alright, love?" she asked, her voice sounding as soft as how she moved. Slow and nonthreatening. Similar to how a doe would walk to her fawn after leaving them alone to find food for herself. Slow and nonthreatening. Just like how you should treat a shocked friend.

"Better." I mumbled, digging myself into her neck, breathing in her flowery scent. She must've taken a shower a few hours ago, since the world hasn't touched the soft smell. I wish the world didn't touch people who didn't deserve it.

I wish the world had never touched Eret. I wish the world has never touched Karl. I wish the world had never laid a single finger on Wilbur. I wished the world could've stayed miles from Niki. I wish the world was never here to be close to me.

"That's great," Niki breathed. "Have you eaten much yet?"

The question lingered on the air for a moment before the answer slipped from my mouth before I could overthink it.

"Not a ton. A couple bites of mac and cheese." I responded, squeezing my eyes shut and waiting for Niki to scold me. But it never came.

"Try. Please." she murmured. I looked up from where my face had been on her neck and looked to see tears pooling in her eyes. That sight was enough to break me.

Eret and Tech were wondering why Niki and I had gotten so close in the past week. My only response was that she was always there and she knew what it felt like. She knows what it's like to go through traumatic events, and we bonded over such things. As sad as it sounds.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry!" I sobbed, pinching my hand. Niki looked back at me and softly separated my hands from each others reach.

"Sh, it's alright. My only request if that you try to eat. Not even a lot." Niki reminded me. "I just want you to try, as hard as it may be."

I nodded, tears still clinging to my eyelashes. Niki wrapped me back in a hug. She gave the best hugs. They were soft and warm, and she always allowed you to bury your head in her shoulder, especially when you're crying. She always made sure to help you out when you were feeling at your lowest.

"I'll try." I responded, pulling back from the hug and settling myself under her arm as she picked up the nearly cold bowl of mac and cheese.

"Alright, I'll grab someone to warm this up." Niki murmured, pulling herself from the soft bedding and opening the door so she could stay in the frame as she yelled for someone to warm up the bowl that sat cold in her hands. Someone, Fundy, stole the bowl from Niki's hands and dashing down the stairs.

Niki turned back into the room to find me picking up the remote and pressing the power on button to turn the TV back on. When Karl had walked in the room he had made the mistake of turning off Gravity Falls. This shit was good and if anyone denied it I would cry. Simple as that.

"Good show." Niki acknowledged before taking back her position on the bed, making it capable for me to snuggle back up against her. It was only another few moments until the door opened and Wilbur held the bowl of previously cold mac and cheese in his hands.

"Hey, Y/n." Wil said, handing the bowl over to Niki who let it stay on the bedside table to let the bowl itself cool a bit so it wouldn't burn me on the touch. Not that I would mind but some people care about me, for some reason.

Wil stood by the door for a few more seconds, admiring the show, before turning out the door and softly shutting the door behind him. The room was quiet for another few minutes before Niki picked up the bowl from the table and brought it to my lap.

"Try to eat a bit more than earlier and I'll be satisfied." Niki reasoned. She handed me the spoon as well, seeing as it was outside of the bowl when she had given it to Fundy. Or when Fundy stole it from her, I suppose.

"Alright, I'll try." I murmured, picking up the spoon and trying to step towards a new era of life. A happier one. Or I pray a happier one.

a/n, dudes, ive been having a shit day. so i wrote:DDD im apart of this very amazing smp called the star smp(going to be renamed) and two members left today:(. One of which was the owner, Tobi, and the other was one of my closest friends on that server, Haley. So my response? writeeee:) I'm super sorry for not posting super often, schools been stressful and I've been more forgetful recently. anyways, i hope you have a much better than me, or you've had a much better day than me and if you didn't and need to vent, you can always dm me in discord and tiktok:)

Tiktok: aven.the.goblin
Discord: gayestboo

I'll always be here for you guys, even if I don't know you. I don't want people to get hurt, even if it's so far out of my control. It just hurts my heart. So please, tell someone whether it's me, a friend, or an adult. I want you guys to feel better if you've been feeling like shit and I love you all so much<3