wilbur soot x y/n

chapter nineteen|lore stream

c!Y/n: I was brought up with a trauma of sorts that I don't know and will never remember. A trauma that I've shared with Tubbo seeing as he was my brother and has been since I was around four. I have a memory so strong that I can recite anything I've read once. 'A memory of steel,' Techno had said once. He told me that Death couldn't even break my memory. I always had quotes in my head from a book I had read years ago. A book which title I can't remember. It read 'Revive Book' on the front. When did I read that? I remember it so much more clearly than anything else. Techno told me that he had voices as well, that his uttered words of violence. Not like mine. Mine uttered words of harmfully truthful knowledge. I had too much to say. Some I had read and some I have thought of. But I wouldn't utter it on any other surface that the one I die on. I heard so many words at the prison that I was taken after Dream had kidnapped me for tests on revival. So many white streaks in my hair. I think that's where I remember the words 'Revive Book.' So many white streaks. If you didn't know me, you would assume I was born with naturally white hair with hints of the first colors that stained my head.

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I sat up in my bed, feeling the warmth of this world returning. I checked the walls to double check that I wasn't just going insane, but I saw the familiar spruce wood planks that served as a shelter. Not stonebrick barriers.

I saw a letter by the door with the seal of the main server. And Dream's handwriting that had addressed the letter to me. I already had a dreadful sense gluing me to my mattress, not wanting me to open the message. But I had to do so.

Dear Y/n Soot,

The members of Dream Smp formally invite you to a celebration to observe the one year mark of L'manburg becoming a crater. If you do not respond, we will assume that you are ignoring this invitation and will send guards to disrupt what little peace you may have. 

The party will take place inside of Kinoko Kingdom's walls where you will be watched closely. Whatever attempts that you may be planning to disrupt the party will be ruined by members of the special guard which will take you back to the dreadful prison that you had luckily escaped several months before.

Of course, you can always come back if you wish. You may have hated it but you will have to come back to our Kingdom either way. You will be taken back to the prison if you don't come and if you do come you will likely cause trouble with your lot. Cell Ten has your name on it.

Sincerely, Dream

Lord not the Prison. I just escaped with Techno and Tommy's help a few months ago. They'll take me back, back, back, back, back. Back to where I was tested. To where Tubbo, my own brother, turned his back on me and left me with Dream who taken so many lives from me.

Back, back, back, back, back.

To where I lost my own brother to a deranged psychopath. To someone who is slowly killing me, even if I'm not in front of him or having direct contact from him, I'm still dying. I already know I'm going to be taken even if I am peaceful.

Words ran through my head. Words I had recited from the few book I had in Tech's cabin where I hid for a month or so. So, so many words. Words from my childhood that I don't remember and things that I had heard in Kinoko Kingdom.

I couldn't help but hear the words about my trauma. Everything hurts. My brain. My heart. And most importantly, my soul. My soul was in so much pain. It keep remembering words from books I have recited.

'You can't truly call yourself peaceful unless you're capable of great violence. If you're not capable of violence, you're not peaceful, you're harmless.'