Make you mine

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POV OF PEARL:

I think I still have some confessions to make to you, love. The remaining ones I wasn't able to tell you.

When I met you, I wasn't so sure of myself if I am capable of loving again, of giving it to somebody worthy. But you've changed my mind and my heart.

I was afraid that you may not see through the feelings I'm slowly developing, cause that moment I felt I was liking you, I was like, "Can I make him happy?" Because you know I'm such a mess at that time.

I have such a colorful past but it's still all grey, I may have been in love several times, but it seems I can't find what my heart truly wants or need, then you came into the picture and crash-landed into my world.

It's easy to just fall in love and say the cheesy lines, to make someone feel loved, but for me, it always takes everything or every bit, every fiber of my being to love someone deeply.

And when I met you, I felt this calmness coming from you, and perhaps that very moment, I begin to like you, yes, I already like you from the start, and I was thinking at that time what would be like to be loved by you.

Maybe I've met a lot before you came, like some other people from the past, but- there's no one quite like you, you're one of a kind, and it's just clicked and my heart fell.

And you never left my mind ever since, I keep thinking of you. I wanted you but I was scared before. I was scared that we aren't on the same page or you may not like me but unknown to me, you like me as well.

I was cold before because I don't know how to express myself to you, I was like a child wanting to show you what I feel. When my feelings dangerously crossed the line, then and there I realize, I'm falling in love with you.

And you pulled my inner child as no one else did. I wanted to tell you everything and it was calming and scary at the same time. You're straightforward and tell me things in a heartbeat.

And along the way, I keep- falling in love with you. And to be honest, I was wishfully thinking in silence, about how it feels to be with you, to be tied to you, and to love you for the rest of my life.

You make me- love you more. And I don't want to let it go, nor I would want to lose you. I'm deeply in love with you. You're that one person, I would always keep in my heart, and if you may let me, to keep you in my life and be my safest place.

Can I be, your safest place?

The safest place I've ever known, where fears and doubts retreat,
Is not a distant, hidden land, nor a secluded street.
It isn't found in fortress walls or mountains' lofty peaks, Nor in the hush of ancient woods, where solitude speaks.

The safest place is in your arms, where warmth and love reside,
A shelter from the storms of life, a haven deep inside.It's in the gaze that meets my own, with understanding true,
Where every whispered word is kind, and every touch renews.

The safest place is in your smile, a beacon in the dark,
A guiding light that leads me home, a calm and steady spark. It's in the laughter that we share, that echoes pure and bright,
A melody that chases fears, and fills the heart with light.

The safest place is in our dreams, where futures intertwine, Where hopes and wishes blend as one, and every star aligns. It's in the moments spent with you, in silence or in cheer,
A space where I am truly free, with nothing left to fear.

The safest place I've ever known is not a far-off shore, It's here with you, where love abides, and hearts are bound by more.
It's in the simple, quiet times, where peace and comfort flow,

For in your presence, I have found the safest place I know.

I know this vacation will be happy and i hope there's nothing going on here while we're here in this beautiful place.

"Pearl" tawag saken ni raven.

"Bakit?"

"May itatanong kami" sabi naman ni margo.

"Ano ba yun?"

"Okay na ba kayo ng soon to be mister mo?" Tanong ni kim.

"Baka? Pero para saken kasi diko pa talaga alam.
Suddenly nagkaroon ng gantong galaan tapos he always call me "love" or  "wife" ang pagkakaalam ko peke naman kami dahil arrange lang lahat"

"Did you ask him?"tanong ni raven.

"His endearment about me NOT and yung sa arrange marriage kami lalung HINDI."

"Why don't you ask him later diba? To clear out of the things that actually doing out of nowhere"saad naman ni kim.

"Oo nga para di tayo nanghuhula parehas dito" sabi naman ni raven

"And please pearl clear your feelings to that man baka naman mamaya ayaw mo pa parin ngayon pero napilitan ka na naman." Saad ni margo

"At para alam mo girl before he ask you kinausap kami muna kung makakasama ba kami sainyo"singit ni kim.

Natahimik ako sa mga sinabi nila dahil lahat yun ay pawang katotohanan at para din naman alam ko anong intensyon niya bakit gusto niya gawin lahat ng ito.

I'm asking myself where do i go if no one is there to question my situation right now and how can i handle this situation without my friends?

How can i survive this if ever i don't have support system? How long i will live in this cruel world if no one is there for mw to listen all my problems and my decision?

How far away from this if ever they not here in my side?

Nasa utak ko lang bakit nga ba lahat ng effort na ito ginagawa ni luke?

To win me and my academic or they wealth?

I'm bringing the fact that we cannot afford there money's of there bunch of companies pero ano ang intensyon niya saken at bakit gustong gusto niya akong pakasalan at maging asawa ko siya?

All of my questions will be answered when i will move to his own life.

Let's see and get answers what i want to be free again without any husband in my life and in my surname.