Make you mine

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Future

POV LUNA:
If love left a void in you, the night will fill it, but with your peace. It costs losing your senses to fix whatever pain the love caused you.

But is it really called healing? When you fill up one part of yourself with others, and you always end up with one part missing.

And it haunts you at night because you miss that part, which you gave someone else. You regret it and sometimes cry over how you became so weak. You end up in a situation where you can't handle anything, not your life, not your mind. You become hollow because, in order to keep filling yourself up, you finally lose it all.

Now, you're worried about how the other one is living with the extra part within themselves.

Let me tell you, it feels heavy to carry that extra part with you which doesn't belong to you. You can't fix it in yourself, not in your heart or in your mind. Because you had no void within you when you left.

But with time, it keeps getting heavier, which creates a hole in you that you can't fill. Because every time you do, it gets out. Now it's karma for you. You regret having it more than they regret giving their hearts to you.

And with time, they get healed by finding someone else-much better than you-who is ready to fill their void and make them complete.

And you become an outsider even for the night, which was meant to give peace and shelter to everyone.

Di ako makakapili sa sitwasyon na ito. Dahil alam ko din naman na pagdi natuloy ang kasal di ako makakapagtapos dahil lang sa rason na kaylangan ko siya pakasalan.

My friends told me not to fall inlove so easily, for I might love the wrong person for me. My mom told me not to trust someone who promise me, for I might end up expecting for nothing someday.

I told myself to build walls around my heart, high enough to guard it from being hostage by a heartbreaker. But I think it's too late, I've learned to love you anyway.

I've learned to be happy when you're around. I've learned to be sad when you are sad, too. And every time that you would show how much you care for me, I trust you a little. You started making promises and I started believing in you. You started making me feel special and I started loving you deeper.

I'm telling you, I never planned to fall for you- it just happened.

I was at peace with you, I was happy and scared to lose you. But one day, I felt like you're fading away- until you disappeared suddenly. I didn't understand what happened. And I didn't even have the chance to tell you how much you meant to me.

Gusto ko man o hindi, wala ang desisyon na ito dahil gusto ko makapagtapos ng pagaaral.

Fantasy university
Kung saan dito ako nagaaral at sila nag may ari.

So know pano ako makakapagtapos at pano ako aalis sa buhay ko kung alam nila lahat tungkol saken?

Hindi ko gusto ang mga bagay na ganito lalu na sa pagdedesisyon ng mga magulang ko patungkol sa kasal na diko naman gusto at wala akong magagawa.

Kahit san ako pumunta kahit kanino ako sumama mahahanap niya ako.

Naalala ko pa nung di ako nagpaalam sa magulang ko na umalis magisa muna.

Pinahanap ako ng pamilya ni luke.
At kasama pa siya naghanap saken.
Unang away namin yun dahil sinigawan ko siya.

There are nights when I get emotional for no reason at all, and somehow I'd like to think that it's my heart weeping for my dreams that didn't come true. I guess I'd been so used to people talking about how painful a broken heart is, but this kind, I've come to learn, is something that hits differently.