𝑴𝑨𝑺𝑲𝑺

10

..."It's like you wait until I'm happy again, and the you just decide to walk right back into my life".... Unknown

Iretiola's POV

I open my eyes faster than I shut them cause even in the darkness of my closed eyes,my mind is compelled to picture him. The creature that took my virginity away without so much as a question.

'Who does he think he is? Who the hell does he think he is,to think he can lecture me when he doesn't know half the shit I've been through? He's probably so rich that he doesn't understand the concept of real problems.

He won't win. I won't give him that satisfaction because after all I've been through, I have a right to my pain and suffering.

If anything, I have the right to own my trauma' I think as i get up to take my bath and dress up in my pyjamas

*****

"Stopp,stooopppp,leave me alooneee, don't touch mee,please stop,please d-do-d-don't do this,please don't do this, stop,aaahhhhhhhh, please, please,p-"

I'm woken up from my horrible nightmare by my roommates, Sharon and Angel "Ireti, what's wrong?" "Why are you screaming in the middle of the night?" "Why were you crying in your sleep?" "Did you have a nightmare?" They ask worriedly.

My sleep mask is still on but I can hear them and once I feel a hand on my arm, I flinch and say "don't touch me!... please " "Okay,but are you sure you're alright?,Do you need me to call someone? Look at you, you're drenched in sweat " "Thank you, just leave me alone, I'll go and take a shower, sorry I disturbed your sleep".

I take a shower and walk to the garden whilst cautiously looking over my shoulder in fear of being followed by HIM, and Travis thinks my pain is unnecessary?!.

God help me I see him there, I swear to God I'll beat him to a pulp and throw his stupid jacket in his face.

I feel so tired and sleepy but my fear of seeing HIM again overpowers everything I feel.

I come to a stop at my spot. Thankfully, Travis isn't here and I'm all alone. Just me,my music and the sun that's slowly rising.

I drop Travis' jacket on the floor in his spot and I lay on the cold grass in the cold weather stubbornly refusing to wear his stupid jacket.

"Make my way through the motions

I try to ignore it but home's looking farther the closer I get

Don't know why I can't see the end,Is it over yet...

A short leash and a short fuse don't match

'They tell me it ain't that bad
Now don't you overreact'

So I just hold my breath

Don't know why I can't see the sun, when young should be fun

And I guess the bad can get better,
Gotta be wrong before it's right

Every happy phrase engraved in my mind

And I've always been a go-getter