𝑴𝑨𝑺𝑲𝑺

11

..."The truth will set you free,but first, it'll piss you off"—Gloria Steinem

Iretiola's POV

Fine, go then, I didn't ask for your stupid friendship and I don't need it. She has gone through pains boo—fucking–hoo. How dare she stand there and call me selfish as if she knows how I feel?

She doesn't and she'll never know how I feel because she's the one who's so consumed by her pain,she thinks she's suffered more than anyone else and so she wants to kill herself with drugs.

I don't care if she lives or dies, and I don't care about what she said because she doesn't understand what I'm going through. She hasn't lost her friend and her brother doesn't have a freaking brain tumor.

She doesn't live in the fear that everyone close to her will leave, disappear,no.... die.

I'm always waiting for the call from home telling me that mummy has abandoned us because the responsibility is too much for her to carry.

I'm always trying to prepare myself for my brother's unavoidable death and she stands there and talks shit like she knows all about me.

She said a whole bunch of nonsense but unfortunately that nonsense makes me want to cry.

I haven't felt this much pure hurt in a long time. I don't even want to cut,I just want to cry.

No, I'm not selfish, I'm actually a good person. I've been silent all my life.

'so has Aarin' The voice in my head pipes up.

'She's a coward and a disgrace to we who have had our voices taken by force because she has her voice,she just doesn't want to use it.

She's quiet because she wants to be and I'm silent because I have to be.'

'And why exactly do you think you have to be silent?'

'Because,my voice can ruin a lot of relationships'

'why aren't you just ruining the lot since that's all you have been doing so far?'

'Nooo, I haven't been running anything?'

'your relationships with your friends?
Look, you're wrong okay. Stop trying to justify your selfish acts and just apologize and hope they're still willing to be there for you'

"No, I will only do whatever I think is right, now stop talking to me" I scream into the midnight air.

***************
Two weeks later....

I have thought about everything and I have decided to just apologize to everyone today.

I won't let my bad circumstances define me.

This is a big opportunity for me to debut in the movie that is my life. I'm a natural actress. A happy role shouldn't be a hassle.

From now on, I'll give my best version to others and suffer in secret.

"Hey Angel, Good morning, where's Sharon?" I ask with a wide smile on my face