Rowan Mintz has never been treated the same a her siblings. She was the unplanned pregnancy and the one who didn't fit in. not at school. not at home. To make things worse she was never able to make friend because of her anxiety. the anxiety that h...
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ROWAN POV
My breath quickened and hands were shaken as I sat and looked at the pregnancy test in front of me. I never thought this day would happen. I never even thought I would have the confidence to even speak to someone outside of my family. Let alone get pregnant. I was scared and didn't know what to do. I tried my breathing exercises that I saw online but it didn't help.
Mason would probably know what to do. Mason was a girl's dream and also my dads friend. I always had a girl crush on him when I was younger and he showed me that I could be loved.
He pampered me treated me like a queen. At first I was scared to go any further because he is my dad's friend. When I came to the conclusion that I actually like him I thought it was wrong and that someone who was older than me wouldn't even find me attractive. Of course I never told him how I really felt but one day when my family was away he came and told me how beautiful I was. He confessed that he had like me for a while and would like to be closer.
I am the oldest and the accident baby. My parents adore my siblings and I am always ignored but he never treated me like that. I felt like I was worthy. I didn't think too much of it when he said he wanted to have sex to seal our love.
I was scared and when I expressed that to him. He imminently tried soothing my worries. His words did not soothe me but I did it because he was so sure about it. I didn't want my anxiety to get between everything in my life so I did. I had sex for the first time.
And now I am sitting on the toilet looking down at a positive pregnancy test. I don't know what this would mean to him and I for my family. But I had to tell him. Wiping my tears and getting my breath a little under control I walk into the room. I went out of my room grabbing my book bag.
I already knew that I was late and of course no one noticed that I didn't leave for school.
Even though I was a senior my parents refused to buy a car. So I walked to school which was about a fifteen minute walk. Once I got there I walked to my class. When I was Infornt of the class door I stood there debating whether or not I wanted to go in or not. I know my mom would be mad when she found out that I didn't go to class today.
But my anxiety was on a full high. I thought about walking through those doors and everyone watching the teacher asking me questions. My breathen quicked just thinking about it. A sweat started to form on my body. Squeezing my eyes shut I sigh and turn to the place I always go to think.
I sit here when I am alone(which is always), when I am nervous, and more. I sometimes wish that I would be brave enough to make friends. I don't get bullied everyday, everyone just ignores me as though I am no one, even my siblings. They are never seen talking to me a nobody. I wouldn't be surprised if any one knew we were related. Their more on the popular side with Jamie being a cheerleader and Jack being a football player.
