To Be Determined

~~Chapter 3~~

Minho

I stayed a lot longer than I anticipated.

The scene here was very different. I couldn't quite put my finger on what made it seem different to me. I knew the actual lay out and the décor of the building made it seem very different... maybe that was it?

I spent a lot of my time just watching the interactions with other people. They all seemed friendly. I had gotten a few side glances from people that were passing through and some polite nods and bows. I even got some hungry stares from men and women a like. That alone made me smirk. If only they knew how hard it would be to get me to become involved with any of them right now.

After a while someone took the seat next to me on the small black couch I made made myself comfy on. I was leaned forward with my forearms resting on my knees. Fingers laced together and my hair had hung into my eyes. Giving me that...mysterious, dark, and brooding look, if you will.

I felt the shift of the couch and quickly glanced over. It was a man. Though slightly surprised, I offered him a soft hello.

"Hey... you've been here a while... just watching?" The voice was soft, almost too soft that I couldn't hear it over the music. I leaned back slightly, flipping my hair out of my eyes and finally making full eye contact with the man.

"Hi... yeah. I haven't been in Korea for a while... Just trying to get a feel for what the life style is like here." I gave a gentle shrug and rested my back against the couch, running my arm along the back as well and turned to face the new visitor I had.

He was cute. A soft face, blonde hair, dark eyes. I didn't recognize him, which was a good thing. I offered a slight smile to him, trying to keep things friendly and casual. He seemed to want to do the same. I learned that his name was Akira, and was actually from Japan. He had relocated to Korea to get away from family that didn't understand him or his life style. I also found out that he was a Switch, but with more Sub tendencies. Not necessarily what I was looking for in a partner, but definitely could see why that would be attractive to some.

At the end of it all they exchanged numbers. Even if it wasn't going to be more than a friendship, I was happy to have someone to talk about the life style with. Someone that understood me and what I was looking for. I had even opened up to him more about my thoughts and what exactly I was looking for. He was intrigued, but didn't say much about it other than he understood.

I also mentioned Jisung to him. Not by name of course, but described him. I also explained why I was so interested in introducing him to the life style, but expressed my fears related to it as well.

"Well Minho... if he really cares about you... then maybe it might be a good idea. With the way you talk about him. I would almost say you are in love with him. That's dangerous here... especially if you haven't introduced him to this life... you can't make yourself not have what you want just to keep him shielded... and it's not fair if you live this life as well as loving him with or without him knowing what you want out of it..."

I nodded, that was and will always be my dilemma. Do I introduce him or no? Can I look past my fear? Even if he doesn't accept it right away... could I convince him? I sighed again, Akira looking at me with slight pity. It was almost as if he knew what I was talking about and had been there before. I glanced at my watch and then gasped.

"Shit... I need to go. I didn't realize how long I had been here. I have a busy schedule tomorrow and should probably get some rest..." I went to stand, glancing at Akira again. His eyebrows had furrowed a bit and he stood with me.

"A schedule? You must really be a busy person." He had smirked at me and then bowed. I smirked at him a little and bowed back. I went to turn away from him, but glanced back over my shoulder. He was watching me leave, cute.

"You have no idea."

I then left, stepping back out into the cool night air. It was 3 in the morning... I really needed to get back... What I didn't expect. Was to come face to face with none other than Han Jisung as I walked out of the club.