To Be Determined

~~Chapter 5~~

Days went by with Jisung not speaking to me much. This wasn't a good sign. I didn't think that him just finding out about my lifestyle would damage our friendship this much. It was heartbreaking honestly. On top of that, it had put me in a mood. A mood that was obvious to the other members that I did not want to be messed with.

After lunch on one of our busy days, I found myself sitting at a park. How I got there, I don't know if I could tell you. I sat on a bench overlooking the water. I was, for lack of a better term, manspreading and trying to get as comfortable as possible. I was struggling with everything lately. My focus was off, my singing was off, my dancing was off.

I sighed to myself as I pulled out my phone, surprised by a text message waiting for me... from Jisung.

HanQuokka:

Hey Minho...

I want to talk to you about something... can we meet up, just you and me, tonight?

I stared at the message for a minute. He wanted to talk finally? After almost a week of leaving me on 'read' and not even giving me a glance when we were face to face? As much as I wanted to be stubborn and tell him to fuck off right now... I couldn't. I had a soft spot for that damn squirrel...

Me:

Sure... where do you want to meet?

The reply was almost instant.

HanQuokka:

After dinner... let's go for a walk?

Me:

Okay.

I left it at that. Anything I said, I definitely did not want it to be over text. Jisung deserved that much, even though I was slightly upset with him right now. I knew that I shouldn't be, but it was pretty rough spilling your guts to your soulmate for him to ignore you for days on end. I huffed and crossed my arms over my chest as I continued to watch the water and try to empty my head.

Suddenly, someone familiar showed up. Akira, of all people... this would be interesting to say the least.

"Hey there Minho!" He had bowed to me and then took the seat next to me quickly. Though I didn't really mind, I wasn't expecting to have company today. I offered him a bow of my head with a gentle smile. He looked cuter in the light. Dang.

"Hey there. How have you been?" Small talk wasn't always my forte, but here we are. I leaned forward a bit, giving him my undivided attention. He had a soft smile on his face and flicked some of his hair out of his eyes. He had added some purple to the underneath. It looked fun, and was a great addition that fit him.

"Oh, not bad. I haven't seen you at the club in a while. Well since that one day...did you find someone? Or did you decide you didn't like it there?" Akira had tilted his head a bit and offered me a polite smile. I couldn't help but smile back, it was contagious. "Or did I scare you away Minho?" He giggled a bit, causing me to laugh a little with him.

"Oh, not even close. I just have been having a pretty busy schedule lately. I don't have that much free time." I sigh a bit, the smile dropping from my face. I looked back at the water. It was comforting. I bit my lip a bit and then continued speaking since Akira had stayed quiet.

"I told him. He ran into me when I was leaving the club that night. He asked why I was there and if I knew what kind of place I had been in."

"Oooof. This does not sound like it went well based on how you just said that." Akira got comfy on the bench and gave me another once over. He sighed a bit and then spoke again. "Did he completely reject you? Or did he seem curious at least?"

I shrugged slightly and looked at the man next to me again. "He seemed...confused?" I shrugged again, sighing and clasping my hands against my stomach. "I don't really know. He hasn't talked to me in a few days, even though we see each other pretty much daily... I'm just not quite sure what to do about it. He didn't want to talk about it much that night. I told him to come to me with questions... I don't know... I feel like I may have lost a part of me that night." I sniffed a bit. I didn't let my emotions out very often, but right now...I was definitely at the peak of my sensitivity.

I huffed and stood up quickly, wiping the tears that were starting to slide down my cheeks. I couldn't let this affect me this way. It's exactly what I knew was going to happen sooner or later. I just had to deal with it. I sniffed again and then froze when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me from behind. I glanced over my shoulder. Akira had stood as well and took it upon himself to hug me. Normally, my brain would tell me this was wrong and I needed to get out of this situation, but something about this man was different...

I relaxed a bit into his arms and sighed again. It was like another language for me, sighing. Akira must have taken my sigh as a good thing because he tightened his grip and rested his head chin on my shoulder gently. "It's okay Minho. You will figure this out. If Jisung truly cares about you... he will talk this out with you. I know it."

I nodded again at the repeat of information he had given me that night. I knew that...I really did, but the wait to know how Jisung truly felt was painful at best. I stepped away from him and turned to face him. "Thank you for being a good friend. I know we haven't known each other for long, but I appreciate your kindness." I got a smile in return.

"No problem Min...just so you know...if you ever need to release some stress or frustrations...I am all for no strings attached." Akira shrugged at me and smirked. I'd be lying if I said that thought hadn't crossed my mind over the last few days, but I wasn't sure if I was ready to breach that subject with someone I had already told so much of my feelings to.

"Thank you for the offer... It's appreciated...Jisung wants to talk to me tonight...so...I will let you know how that goes...and we will go from there." I did offer him a bit of a flirtatious wink with it, causing a blush to rise on the other's cheeks. I patted his head gently. "I have to go though... Lunch is about over and I have a schedule to adhere to..."

Akira smirked a bit. "Oh I know... Lee Know of Stray Kids..." My eyes widened a bit and the other just giggled, waving as he headed back into town. Well fuck... he knew who I was all this time. What a little shit....

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A/N: 

I honestly feel like I am just excited about this story so I want to post for frequently.  Maybe every 4 days?  We will get through it very fast I feel... 

But also, I have started writing the sequel to it already as well... so that's a thing.  As long is the flow goes good with it I will post that shortly after this one I bet.  

I don't know what I am going to do after that one though.  Maybe take a break from writing as a whole for a bit and just relax until something strikes me again like this book did.  I feel like I write better when I am actually excited about the story too... 

Anyways! 

Enjoy!