Where Hearts Might Heal

Chapter 25

I looked around the room one last time. "You ready?" Jay asked. I glanced at him then nodded.

"I hate that you're going to miss our spa day," Nat mumbled.

"Yeah, especially since you're the one who won it for us," Memphis added. I shrugged.

"It's fine. Now Marcy can take my place." I told them. Jay and I were leaving a day before everybody else since we had to drive. Plus, we'd have to make multiple stops since we had Snow with us.

"Don't worry. She'll still get her spa day." Jay assured them. I smiled up at him as he wrapped his arm around me.

"No, no, no." Beck moved Jay's arm off of me. "That better be a spa day at an actual spa." Beck snapped. I rolled my eyes.

"I'm almost eighteen. I can do what I want. If I want Jay to give me his own little version of a spa day then he will." I told my older brother. Beck's eyes narrowed.

"You already have three friends that are pregnant. You better not be the fourth one." I rolled my eyes again.

"Why does it always have to go back to that?" I yelled. Everybody just looked at me. "Why does everything have to go back to my friends being pregnant? Just because they're pregnant doesn't mean I'm going to get pregnant. I don't want a baby right now. I know that. We both know that. Besides, Jay's leaving at the end of the year for baseball. I don't even know what I want to do yet. A baby just doesn't fit into our lives right now. We're really careful. I know condoms and birth control aren't a hundred percent effective or whatever. If it does happen, then Jay and I will deal with it. It'll be on us, not anybody else." I snapped.

"How can you say that? How can you say it won't be on anybody else? You're both still living with his mom. You'll probably be living with me. It'll be on the people you live with as well." Beck yelled. I just narrowed my eyes at him.

"Can we just go?" I asked Jay. He looked between Beck and me then nodded.

"Okay, what's going on with you?" Jay asked as soon as we were in the car. I gave him a look. "You're my girlfriend. I spend a lot of time with you. I love you. I know you. I know when something is bothering you. You always get upset when someone brings up you getting pregnant." He added. I sighed.

"A few months ago, I had some things going on with my body besides the kidney failure. I went to a doctor about it. He told me that I might never be able to have a baby." I whispered. Jay took my hand.

"Let me guess, you haven't told anybody." I shook my head. "You're the only person that knows besides me and the doctor. I don't want to get into all the details right now. He just told me that there's a possibility that I'll never be able to get pregnant. I'll never be able to feel a baby growing inside of me. I'll never be able to feel my baby kicking. I'll never get any of that." I mumbled as tears filled my eyes.

Jay pulled me into a hug as best as he could in the car. "But it's a might. You just said that he told you might. He didn't say you'd never get that. It's still a possibility." He whispered.

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"Blaire, wake up," Jay whispered into my ear. I yawned as I opened my eyes.

"Are we home?" I asked. He chuckled.

"Not exactly. Someone wanted to see you first." He replied. I rubbed my eyes and looked around. My eyes widened and I smiled at Jay. Jake walked out of the house, well more like ran.