Dear my not so Dear but I'm sad so you're my Dear Diary,
I like Nathan. He's not what the the society would call a 'handsome' person but he's handsome for me and that is all that matters. And I'm really good at composing myself like I act that I don't really care when I saw him or if he's around. I'm gonna give myself a pat in the back for a good job for that.
Yesterday, I was screaming inside when he send a friend request on my Facebook account. And I can't help but think that maybe he likes me too because when we're in the assembly meeting the other day, I'm sure he's looking at me affectionately and I have proof on that! That is me not being delusional this time I swear! In our department website, there's a photo where I am standing and he's at the back looking at me with this oggling eyes! I swear!
I wait for a while (like 3 seconds) before I accept his friend request so that he would not think that I accept him immediately because I'm desperate or what. I still have my decency people!
I am smiling sheepishly at the situation. We're not close in real life but at least we're friend on Facebook!
When I was walking for my first class this morning, he was walking across of me. Our eyes met but I act like it's nothing even though deep down I was screaming because that is for sure another record of us having a contact even though it's only eye-contact. But still!
When my classmate and I are walking to eat some lunch this noon he was also walking ahead of us. He was always looking back and I think he was looking at me (let me be delusional just this one). That makes me happily eat my lunch that noon.
When I went home, I saw his MyDay—it makes me suddenly loose interest at him (just .2 percent). It was him and another person tag which he calls as My Engineer.
From now and then, I constantly saw his MyDay, sometimes they're in a cafe, other times they're in a restaurant or in a park. Kinda suck. I want to unfriend him but that move maybe not a good idea. After all, we're not even close. We just went on a same university, same department, same course, just different interest. I guess I'm going to be single in this lifetime.
"Be careful on on your way home S-S-Sam!" I just watch at Tristan walking away, his demeanor is kinda blue. What a weird guy.
Your ever so sad and gorgeous,
Samuel the Prettyƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ
