Dear Samuel,
I don't believe in love at first sight but when I first saw you with that worried face you wore during our first encounter made me believe it so strongly. Your blondish-brownish hair, your brownish-blackish eyes, your pinkish-reddish lips, your pale skin, your long lashes, your sharp jaw, and that mole under your left eye made me believed in love at first sight.
I don't really like cliche stories because it is just so unrealistic but everything that happened in my life because of you is kinda cliche I may say. Our first encounter is your typical romantic stories starter pack, the way I am with you is a typical shy type lead character in romance stories starter pack, the way you are with me is a typical cold boyish lead character in a romance story starter pack. It is just so cliche but I don't hate it—in fact, I love to reminisce every now and then especially when I'm in the mood for cringed moment I have with you and it's NOT bad because it is actually so...cute!
I don't really have that great moment with LIFE but we both are in a civil relationship so I don't really have that strong negative feelings toward LIFE. But because of you, I've been appreciating LIFE more, I've been very grateful of LIFE, and I feel blessed—I've been in a good mood because opportunities, and chances, and shots had been given to me and that thanks to LIFE. You made me love LIFE too.
I am a plain, boring, dull person and I think I'm still am but you made me feel so brave,confident and interesting. You made me feel so loved, cared, appreciated , and helped me feel love myself from time to time that I feel so much insecure. I can now confidently speak what's on mind. I no longer stutter nor stumble but I feel so nervous when I saw you—the good kind of nervous.
I am still questioning my every action but I don't feel that scared anymore. It no longer made me shit my pants because I know that my action can change things for the better and direct me to the path full of victory. You made me become a better person, you help me to became a better person err no scratch that... YOU make me want to become a better person.
I am still the same person who love you at first sight. I am still the same person who love you when you laugh. I am still the same person who love you on our first night.
Love,
Your Poor Tristan
I yawn and rub my eyes when it become blurry.
"What are you doing?" I quickly close my diary and sheepishly grin at Samuel.
