Stillness of Love

Prologue

I'm so excited to go back in the Philippines and meets again my old friends there na friends ko pa rin ngayon. We moved here in Canada when I am ten years old so I know how to speak Tagalog naman and my mom's talking to me Tagalog rin kahit we're here.

Wala na akong any relatives sa Philippines because they are in different countries. We, my mom, is here in Canada. Tito Richard is the older brother of my mom, sa America sila nakatira. My mom is the second oldest. Tita Vicky, the middle child ay nasa Italy naman. Tito Randy the second youngest ay nasa Spain. Then lastly, the youngest is tito Randel na nasa France. My grandparents were dead na rin.

And about to my father's side. I don't know. Ni hindi ko nga kilala ang ama ko. Even his shadow ay hindi ko nakita, my mom don't want to tell me about him so I respect that. I don't know if he's still breathing or what. Tsk, I don't care about that man. Hindi ko siya hinanap dahil bata palang ako ay nakikita ko ang mommy kong pinupunan rin ang pangangailangan ko sa ama, so I'm contented. I admit that sometimes some of piece felt empty, but here is my mom, fulfulling that, then hanggang wala na, wala na akong pake sa ama kong 'yon.

I will stay with the son of my mama's friend here na parang sister na rin niya. Wala naman daw problema since her son is the only one at their house. I don't know what her son's looks like, even in the picture I haven't seen him yet, he has a face naman daw ang sabi ni tita but I am not sure of what she said dahil baka siguro anak niya kaya sinabi niya iyon.

I already packed all my things and make sure that I don't have nothing left in here. I will be staying in the Philippines but only for a half a year or maybe a year. Ulit ulit na sinasabi ni mama na I need to be nice there because she's not in my side at makisama daw ako sa anak ni tita.

Mama and Aunt Cecile, which is my mom's friend ang naghatid sa 'kin sa airport. I'm glad that my aunt's sister would pick me up at the airport and sasamahan ako hanggang sa uuwian ko dahil I didn't know pa kung where's the exact place.

"Vien, sabihin mo agad kung hindi mo magugustuhan ang asal ni Pierre ah? Pero mabait naman 'yon at siguradong magkakasundo kayo." Sabi ni tita Cecile

"Vienna, remembers all I said." Mama said before I go.

All I do is to watch and sleep to escape the boredom here in plane. Agad akong sinalubong nung kapatid ni tita Cecile and she introduced herself to me, her name is Celia.

We're inside the car na, buti ay she's madaldal at nakwekwento yung makakasama ko na pamangkin niya.

"Naku hija, sa tingin ko naman ay makakasundo mo siya." She said.

I'm so curious na talaga what looks he has. He's straight ba? bisexual? or gay?

"I wonder what he looks like po..." that's what I asked nalang. Nakakahiya kung itatanong ko pa kung ano ang kasarian niya.

"Gwapo naman," she said. "May kasungitan nga rin pala pero mabait naman 'yon" dugtong pa niya.

I didn't know that I fell asleep pala kaya when I woke up saktong nags-stop na yung car.

"Mukhang walang pa siya, hija. Tara pasok ka."

The house was bigger than our house. Seriously?! sa laki ng bahay na ito ay isa lang ang nakatira? Even maids ay wala, how could he maintain this cleanliness?

Ate Celia tours me before she left. The room I use is slightly bigger than mine in Canada.

"Vien, can't wait to see you na! Get some rest na so we will have a fun tonight!" Zyra said with an energetic voice.

"Okay, bye!"

I didn't take a sleep, I am not that tired because sanay naman na ako sa long travel so I immediately get myself ready para makapunta na agad to Zyra.

Magpupunta kami sa house nila Bridgette to have fun since it's her birthday. She doesn't know that I'm back because I want to surprise her.

I wore my white plain tube dress and my white sandals. I just put a light make-up on my face because that's what suits on me. I put a super duper konting lipstick on my lips. I don't like lipsticks kasi, lalo na kung matingkad ang kulay, hindi ko kasi bagay, I don't have confidence in myself when it comes in wearing lipsticks, mukha akong mataray at kontrabida!

I'm here sa restaurant malapit doon sa house nila Bridgette, waiting for Zyra. I'm earlier to what time we talked kaya I ordered food na rin, I didn't eat mula nung pagkarating ko.

Napalingon ako sa may door when someone's entered. It was Zyra! Her eyes widened the time she saw me, I think my eyes, too. She looks like so freaking gorgeous, her angelic face didn't fade since we were kids.

She immediately ran to me. "Vienna! my god I missed you so much! Totoo na ba 'to?!" She hugged me tight. "Grabe ang ganda mo pa rin!"

"You too, Zy." I smiled. "Let's order your food na, my treat."

"No, no, no. Busog pa ako."

A few minutes of our conversation ay she told me na punta na kami kila Bridgette. Zyra has a car so we didn't walk or commute although it's near naman here.

Ang dami sigurong bisita, their garage is full of different cars. Pagkababa namin ay sumalubong sa 'min si tita Edith, mommy ni Bridgette. After she hugged Zyra she looks at me and I think she's shock.

"Vien, ikaw na ba 'yan, nak? Kelan ka pa nakauwi? How's my kumareng Vivian?" tuwang-tuwa niyang mga tanong.

I just chuckles at sinabayan ko na ng pagmamano. Hanggang sa makapasok kami ay she kept staring at me, buti ay may dumating pang iba so tita Edith's attention ay nabaling sa iba. "Punta nalang kayo sa pool, nandoon sila," tita Edith said before she leave.

"Zy, wait..." she looked at me, waiting to continue what I'm saying. "My dress is too short ba?" I asked Zyra. I saw a lot of people kasi through the glass door bago kami pumunta doon. There's girls rin naman na mas short pa dito sa suot ko ang suot, pero kasi I didn't know all these people, e...

"Sa totoo lang, oo, pero normal lang naman 'yan. Tara!" She grabbed my hands at dali daling tumakbo papunta kay Bridgette.

"Bridgette!" Zyra shouted.

"Happy birthday!" Zyra and I greeted Bridgette together.

"Thankyou!" we both received a warm hug by birthday girl.

"After how many years glad to see you again, my Vien!" Bridgette said.

"The flies so fast, no? Parang kahapon lang we're kids pa then now look at us," I said.

Bridgette sits with us, we're drinking now. The party lights was hard kaya I feel so dizzy na although hindi naman mababa ang alcohol tolerance ko, light ang dumadali sa 'kin since sanay ako sa natural light lang.

I look around and saw a guy with three girls, he's kissing them one by one, iw. He has a masculine body, well I don't deny that he's a good looking. Perfect jawline, his nose na straight and proud, his thin lips, and his unflinching and cold eyes. He's so damn perfect, iisipin mong pinaboran siya ni god while creating him ,eh, all of his features ba naman ay perfect. By the way, seeing them is giving me a headache– or baka the lights or alcohol lang.

Here nalang ako kila Bridgette mags-sleep because I don't know if makakauwi pa ako since may surrounding was spinning na.

After a few moments I'm so dizzy na, I want to vomit.

"Bridgette, I need to use rest room." Paalam ko before standing.

"O-okay... Samahan na kita?"

"No need, I can manage naman. Just enjoy your night," I left them.

Madaling-madali akong hanapin yung rest room. Since the place was crowded may nababangga na ako, I didn't even say sorry to them because my vomit is in my mouth na, isa sa mga nabangga ko ay yung guy earlier who's kissing the three girls.

Dali-dali kong nilock yung door and start to vomit. Pati ata last food that I ate in Canada ay naisuka ko na rin.

Paglabas ko ay sobrang hilo ko. I don't know where I go, I can't even walk straight, my surroundings were spinning.

Matutumba na ako but someone's grabbed my arms to maintain my balance. I didn't know who's this guy because my vision was blurred.

Oh! I know him na! He's the perfect guy!