Kali Klass!

Chapter 36~ Je T'aime <33

Alyssa POV~
When i woke up i felt like i only got 5 minutes of sleep in was 5 in the morning and i had a flight to catch in two hours, i took a shower and brought all my bags down stairs ( I had 4 ) i put my purse near my door and left my keys on the hook, by the time i came out the shower and was dressed it was 6:15 so i decided to wake up everybody so we could eat breakfast. " Mom thanks for the eggs" she smiled, every time i traveled she took it hard. "  Okay well a few rules since were not driving you there, no partying and if you do alyssa one drink and your ass in back on a plane to america got it!? And no drugs at all and you have a meeting with vogue italy okay? " I nodded and my mom got up and hugged me. " You should get going long flight" i smiled and hugged my parents goodbye. " We love you so much have fun dont worry about us were fine" i smiled and hugged them again, the boys brought my stuff out and we all got in the car, kylie jay and moi and max were in the back and me and teo in the front. The drive there was silent, mateo held my hand the whole way and when we got there we all got out. " Miss Rios you have 5 minutes before we leave" i nodded as Max and the captain got int he plane. " Kylie ill text you and take pictures and call and skype kay?" kylie nodded and hugged me. " I love you bug call me when you land" i nodded and hugged her, next was Jaden. " Take care of her a lot can happen in 3 days and if she isnt okay when i get back your gonna wish my plane never got back" he laughed and hugged me. " We'll miss you, stay safe" next was moi and he was so small i couldnt. " I love you okay take care of him dont let him do anything stupid Moises and you too" he chuckled an hugged me i checked my watch i had a minute left and next was mateo. " babe whats wrong?" he hugged me. " I know you still love him and that you cant let him go so go to paris and find yourself okay?" my heart hurt. " Mateo what are you saying?" he kissed my forehead. " I love you so much but so does he" i shook my head and my tears fell. " Are you breaking up with me?" he kissed me and shook his head. " NO alyssa im so in love with you okay? I promised you forever but so did he so you have to work out your feelings okay?" i shook my head. " Baby please dont cry i love you and when you get back ill be right here waiting for you like i always will but while you in paris please find yourself because you have to love yourself before you love somebody else" i kissed him and max called out my name. " Go alyssa ill be here in 4 days i promise" i nodded and kissed him again. " I love you alyssa so much" i nodded and my tears fell. " I love you too  mateo" my hand slipped away from his as i walked away. When i got on the plane i sat next to max and laid my head on his shoulder. " Max why is love so complicated?"  he chuckled and kissed my head. " Because something in your life has to be hard alyssa" i sighed and doze off, tears still flying. 

Mateo POV~
When we got in the car i sat and cried as they watched, kylie tried to rubbed my shoulder but i snatched it away. " Why did i just do that?" moises sighed. " Mateo you were just being honest dont worry she loves you" i nodded and hugged my brother. " Can we go please i just think we all need sleep" Kylie said huggin me. " Yeah, you guys hugry?" they all nodded and i drove off as her plane left.

Alyssa POV~
A 10 hour flight is what killed me. Max sang and talked, i got sleep but he was so annoying the whole flight when we got off there were paps everywhere. " Wanna go threw the back?" i shook my head, i had to face them at one point. Worst choice i ever made. When we got in the car i had anxiety i couldnt wait to get to our hotel, i checked my phone i had a text from ky and my parents so i didnt mind. When we got to the room it was the royal suite so there was 2 beds, i took the gold room and max the black, my room looked over the Eiffel tower and max looked at this beautiful river or lake. " Ready for dinner?" i giggled and shook my head. " Lets shower and make reservations okay?" he nodded and we both showered when we got out the dinner reservation was in a hour  so we got dressed. I put on a white tight lace dress put my hair in a sock bun and put on some sparkly louboutains. When i walked out Max was wearing a white dress shirts and black dress pants, he looked so good. " Ready?" i nodded and linked my arm to his. When we left the hotel there were cameras everywhere i couldnt see cause the flashes were so bright so i had to hold Max's hand to lead the way, i knew mateo would see but i wasnt talking to him, he was right i needed time. 

Mateo POV~
We didnt know if she landed so we all slept at her house. " Shes there" kylie said walking into the room holding her laptop. " How do you know?" she turned the screen around to show TMZ web page and right in the middle was a picture of Alyssa looking beautiful and holding max's hand to the car, i groaned and shoved my face in the pillow. " Dont worry its probably nothing" kylie said rubbing my back. " Ky why does she do this to me?" i laid my head on her lap and she rubbed my head. " She loves you but alyssa cant love anything she isnt capable of it, she feels that when she loves something she'll fuck it over so she pushes herself away" i nodded and kylie kissed my forehead. " She does need time mateo, you right so give her time she'll call you when shes ready" i nodded and got up. " I need sleep" kylie nodded and left the room. I didnt know what to do anymore i loved her but she loved him and i couldnt handle that.

Alyssa POV~
We sat down and ordered wine and steak. " You sure you wanna drink wine?" max asked his eyes were glowing. " Yeah its fine i cant get drunk off of one glass" he chuckled and stared at me. " What Maxwell?" he laughed and shook his head. " I never realized how beautiful you were" i smiled and i felt the heat rush to my cheeks. " Thank you" he nodded and i caught him blushing. " What did he say to you that made you cry the whole trip?" i looked away, i wanted to forget but i couldnt. " He said i had to love myself before i could love him, and that i need to find myself and workout my feelings" max nodded and rubbed my hand. " And now? How are your feelings?" i smiled i felt what i felt before. " Still the same but hes right i dont know who i am and i forgot how to love myself, i dont know what to do" max leaned in and whispered. " Whatever you choose im here and you alyssa fucking rios your beautiful and smart you could make anybody cry or you could make them happy and whoever you end up choosing alyssa doesnt matter because in the end your gonna hurt one of them or both even if you dont want to" i nodded, he was right being with both of them before i knew what i really wanted hurt me more than it hurts them. " Um can yu excuse me?" max nodded and i got up and went into the bathroom and texted mateo *You were right i need to find myself, i cant do that if i tied down to you, while im here im single, that doesnt mean im gonna cheat on you it just means that the only way ill find myself is to be who i was when i loved myself, I love you mateo so much but right now i need space its only 4 days when i come back im all yours i promise, dont go off a fuck a hoe cause your still mine we just dont have a title for now. Ill see you when i get back dont call, dont text back. Goodbye my love, je taime* I walked back to the table and max smiled. " You okay?" i shrugged. " I dont know i just broke up with him, should i be crying?" max shook his head. " Come on lets go" i smiled and as we walked out i grabbed his hand and in twined my fingers with his. " What now?" he smiled at me. " Now we go home cause im tired" he laughed and we away the cameras where screaming my name, i did look back and smiled to let him know i still loved him i winked and got in the car. Tomorrow i knew rumors were gonna be flying but i didnt care, i was finding myself.