VENOM | TAEHYUNG

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Seconds felt like hours.

Time had suddenly frozen in my world. Everything was quiet - no whispers, no voices calling me a sinner. The sound of joyful chatter in the distance fade into a void of nothingness.

I don't even know how long it has been since I had confessed to jungkook. The feeling of those once warm hands , could still be felt on my skin - the roughness and hatred from the smacks. I knew he'd someday find out the truth - and I knew I'd lose him. But , right now - I was at peace with knowing I had no strings attached. I did not have to keep glancing over my shoulder , afraid that I'd be caught pretending to be someone I'm not.

I would he lying if I said ,it did not hurt.

It ached alot that Jungkook only focused on himself. It was as if he did not hear everything else that I opened up about. Infact, I should have never just spilled the truth like that. I was broken about my mother and just did whatever I felt was right in that moment of deep pain. He cursed me with an unhappy future and hoped that I'd die alone. In that second when those words were spewed - I actually believed him. I believed that I'd die , just like my mother.

But-

Lifting my gaze , I stare at his sleeping face and everything else just fades. I will not die alone and unloved - I had this man, my man.

"You aren't asleep yet?", he whispered.

I blink and snuggle closer to his chest as his arms tighten around me. "It's hard to fall asleep ", I mumble. "Do not overthink. Just close your eyes and get some rest, baby", he gave my head a kiss. "Unless you need me to get you prescribed medication? It's been 2 weeks now. You need to sleep", he suggest. It's really been that long? I hadn't noticed... "I will eventually fall asleep ", I turn down the offer. "It's 2am , please stop thinking about unnecessary problems", he kissed my head again. I felt warm against his chest- he was my safe haven.

"How long will you avoid your family because of me?", I ask. "I'm not avoiding anyone. I just don't think it's necessary to see them at this point. I'm busy at work and I have a sweetheart who waits for me to get home. I don't think I can cope with any problems right now", he spoke before clasping my cheek as we meet each other's gaze. "You are my priority. Don't ever think of yourself as a burden", he stroked my skin as I stare. It's all I could do. I knew I was a burden - no matter what he said to comfort or reassure me. I was the one who was keeping him from seeing his family. He may not have a bond with his brothers, but his mother loved him the most - anyone could see that. I hated that he was not returning her calls or texts.

"How much more must I convince you that I am fine without speaking to them?", he sighed. "Atleast respond to your mother. I will feel better if you did", I whisper. He gave a hum before kissing my forehead - "I will. My mother understands my silence. I've gone without speaking to my family for years", he shared. "I think a few weeks is okay", he add and held me against his chest. "I'm sorry for dragging you into my mess", I apologize. "Ana? You don't have to apologize ", he grumbled. "There is nothing to be sorry about. I solely blame your asshole parents", he grit. "If I ever see your father, I will break every bone in his body. I wish you gave me a chance to give your mother a piece of my mind ", he vent. "May her soul rest in peace ", he whispered. "You were handed a horrible life ,baby. You handled everything as well as you could", he nuzzled his nose into my hair. "I am proud of you ", he whispered. "You are safe with me , baby. I will not let any harm come to you. You don't even need to go back to work. Just stay with me , baby. I will take care of you ", he promised. I couldn't stop the tears which stream down my rosy cheeks.

No one has ever uttered those words to me in all my life. Its as if I could die right now and I'd be content with my life - with every moment and memory I share with Kim Taehyung.