Will we work ????

Chapter 3

Tris POV

I don't know what's wrong with me or why am I like this but I can't stop. Tobias has his arm around me and it's still ignites something in me, even though I'm in a mess. Every time he touches me, I swear I feel as if my whole body is on fire. I really want him but I feel less confident after that encounter with Lauren this morning. I have never told this to anybody, not even my parents, that I have a very low self-esteem. I've never dared to tell anybody that. I feel as if Tobias is too good for me. I feel as if I can't give him anything. But if I know that, why am I not breaking up with him? I know why. Because I love him so much that it hurts. Hurts to see him hurt. I know that he'll be broken beyond anything if I left him. I know he loves me. I've seen it in the way he looks at me every time. But my case is different, besides love, I feel something stronger every time I see him. Desire.

That's what I feel. Desire. But is it too fast? Or should I say, am I going too fast? Of course it is fast. I've known for what, less that a year? And I'm already craving him? Of course it's fast. I don't think he feels the same way about me. It's way too fast. I mean, look at me. I have nothing to give him. I don't even know why he likes-no, loves me in the first place. There are so many other girls he could choose. Why me? Think about it, I really have nothing to give, and he has a lot to give me. Give anyone. I'm not even paying attention to Ms.Wu. But I do know that she's saying something about musical theory or something. I already know what she's talking about. I've always had a strong passion for music. So I went for singing classes everywhere when I was little. I feel like writing a song, about my feeling. Maybe I'll do that when I get home. The bell rings. It's time for lunch. Tobias leads me out the door.

"Tris." I keep walking.

"Tris." He says louder. I turn to look at him.

"Don't believe anything she said. It was all a lie. You're beautiful and the most perfect person to me in the whole world. What she said is all nonsense. Just forget it." He says. Just forget it, that easy, huh? I'm the one who got insulted.

He leads me to the cafeteria and sits down. A paper plane lands on the books I'm holding in front of me. I open it up to find a note.

Get away from my Four, loser.~Lauren~

I get mad. I don't feel like a loser. I feel a beast waking up inside me. I didn't even know I had it in me. I whip my phone out and text her.

Me-He's mine. You get away, Slut.

Lauren-How on earth did you get my number?!

Me- You texted me the day before prom, klutz. I know your number.

Lauren-Whatever, Four will be mine. You just wait.

Me-That's what you tried to do last time, honey. See what happened to you?

I look to where Lauren's sitting and see that she's glaring murderously at me. I roll my eyes at her and eat my lunch. That's when I decide that, I will no longer get affected by what she does to me.

I will no longer let Lauren get to me.