Will we work ????

Chapter 18

Tris POV
I run off to music. Leaving Tobias behind. Only one thought is running through my mind now. Will we work? Will we work? Will we last? Oh! I don't know why am I suddenly like this but I have been thinking lately. So that is why. Also, I notice that Tobias has a way of acting when I'm around other guys.
He'll look as if he's angry. Well, angry isn't the right way to describe that look. But something like...I don't know...jealous? Yeah, jealous.
Jealous?! Why does he need to be jealous? Is it part of what is breaking us up? I can't tell. But my problem isn't jealousy. My problem is something more than that. It's fear. Fear that Lauren take him away from me. It isn't like she is Tobias's type or anything. But she is planning something big and Tobias doesn't see it.
Tobias is just someone I met last year but I've grown to love him so much, that the thought of losing him sends shivers down my spine.
I don't even realise the fact that I am sitting in my music class right now. Ms. Wu isn't here yet and Tobias is next to me. Examining my demeanor. I look away and take out my books.
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I hop in my car and drive home. Tobias can go home with Zeke. I don't really feel like talking to him right now. As for the party, I am not going. She will be there and I don't want to see her ugly face. I will punch her if I do. I run upstairs to my room and start doing my HW. A while later, my phone beeps. Tobias is calling me. I pick it up and answer the call.
Tobias-Tris? Are you okay? Where are you?
Tris-Yeah, I am good. I am at home.
Tobias- Ok, me too. Why'd you leave without me?
Tris-I just wanted to be alone.
Tobias-Ok, but why?
Tris- I want to ask you something.
Tobias- Yeah?
Tris-Do you think we need a break?
Tobias- A break? From what?
Tris- From us.
Tobias-Tris?! You're kidding me right?!
Tris- No, I'm not. I am serious.
Tobias- No we can't! That is it . I am coming over there.
He hangs up. I throw my phone onto the bed. Tears start rolling down my cheeks. I don't even know why I suggested that but I felt like it was the right thing to do. Whenever I try and talk about Lauren he just doesn't like to listen to me. The door bursts open and I don't even bother to look at him.
"Are you out of mind?! We can't break up! I love you too much!" He says.
I sit with my back to him. "You haven't said that in a long time."
"What?! Tris, look at me!" He yells desperately.
"I can't." I say.
"But why?" He asks. The bed dips behind me. He must be sitting behind me. I feel his hand on my shoulder. I brush it away. "Tris, please."
"Just go." I say.
"No, I won't. Not until I fix this." He says.
"Even if it is because of you?" I ask.
"Especially if it is because of me."Tobias says."Is this about Lauren?"
"Don't bring her up. The last time I did. You know what happened." I say.
"I promise. I am not  friends with her to hurt you in any way. I love you and only you." He says.
He grabs my waist and presses his lips against mine, really hard. I grab the collar of his shirt with one hand and run my fingers through his hair with the other hand. I miss this. Really miss this. I let of his collar and grab the hem of his shirt. He pulls it off and throws it to the floor. Still kissing me, he takes my hand and puts it on his abs. No one can describe the feeling that went through me. He pushes it up to over his chest and puts it on his shoulders. I feel his warm hand slip under my shirt. It moves to just below my chest and my shirt creeps up with it . He pulls my shirt off of me and throws it to the floor.
I gasp, breaking away from the kiss. He looks at me like I am some treasure chest he found. And I don't feel embarrased. We may not be ready for sex yet but that, was really something. For the first time in days, I feel contented.