101 Sparks by Paige (Just Please Be Mine)

Chapter 13

     I am here at the school library, reading ‘The Hunger Games’. Actually, it’s a nice book! I love how Katniss Everdeen roles! She’s strong, independent, and brave. She’s a girl whom we need to adore and look up to along with Hermione Granger. I love those two! They’re like my inspiration. Okay, enough of that. I’m here because it’s my free time. Actually Stacy, Tanya and Asher also have theirs but they’re busy doing other things, especially now that Asher has a girlfriend and he needs some alone time with her.

     Ugh! I’m remembering it again! I’m trying to move on right?! To be honest, I’m on the progress of forgetting about the past. I’m trying to forget about the feelings, those sweet memories with him and start with a new one. But I don’t get it why it’s not working! It’s really hard when he’s always here, being sweet and all those mushy stuff he does even if we’re not boyfriend-girlfriend and that just mix up my emotions and feelings! 

     But, I think forgetting won’t help. He’s still my best friend right? Hearing the words ‘best’ and ‘friend’ makes me wanna choke and vomit! Don’t forget to mention he’s been with me for seventeen years, and those seventeen years were filled with many precious memories that are really hard to forget. Even if they’re good or bad, they’re still memories, and I treasure them with all my life.

     I don’t get why I keep on trying ‘cause it’s no use! Is this a sign?! Will there be a chance that we could end up together? Haha. Wrong! Wake up Paige! You and him will not end up together! Trust me; you’re just imagining crazy and stupid things! Maybe you’re hungry! You should eat, maybe you’re just hallucinating! Yeah, right, maybe I am.

     Since I have one hour and forty-five minutes more, I decided to drive to the nearest Seattle’s Best. I’m craving for a frappe and a Chicago Cheesecake! I’m a sucker for cheesecakes, especially the ones from Seattle’s. And now, I want the ones from Chicago, or that’s what they call it.

     I arrive at the parking lot of the coffee shop. Not much cars right now. “The store’s going to be quiet. Good.” I say to myself. I park my BMW next to an SUV. The store’s quiet, but not that hushed. There are students from my school also hanging out. There are some who are studying. Some people are just talking. And some I think are making out near the restroom. Gross! Public display of affection is not cool! I repeat! NOT. COOL. I’m not surprised if they’re gonna do a quickie inside the toilet. Eew, I’ve had enough of my current displeasing sightseeing.

     I go to the menu board and search for a drink that would suit my taste. Hmm, I think I’m going to get Pure Vanilla and of course, my favorite, Chicago Cheesecake! Good thing I’m next in line!

“One Pure Vanilla and a Chicago Cheesecake please!” I happily said to the jolly-looking cashier whom I almost see every time I go here.

“Oohh, I’m sorry miss but there’s no more. The last one’s taken by this cute guy over here.” She says while emphasizing the words ‘cute’ and ‘guy’. But I don’t care! All I want is my cheesecake.

     But yeah, he really is cute. He’s a brunet. Kinda tall, blue eyes, a surfer-like body.

He’s hot!

“Isn’t there anymore? Maybe you have another batch coming up? I’m willing to wait.” I say hopefully to the girl. Do you think I’m shallow? Maybe, but I think I have a reason for that. Perhaps it’s because Asher and I use to buy that every time we go here and I think I’m just reliving the memories, even though that might happen anyway, but when? Am I overacting? Ugh, these moving on stuff and being heartbroken are getting on my nerves! And they’re not the good ones that I’m hoping for.