When he left (svu fanfic)

The decision

Olivia's POV

I found me asking myself, "should I get on the train ?" My heart started beating faster, the closer the train came to arriving. Wherever I am now feels peaceful. I have never felt so at peace before. I can be selfish and choose this peacefulness that I am now surrounded by. I find myself imagining what it would be like to feel like this for ever. I finally looked back over at Lilly and said " I think I am going to stay here, that's the decision I have made." Lilly looked at me with a shocked face and said " and you are a hundred percent sure ?"  I responded " yes, I believe so." Lilly then said " I would have never figured you for a coward Olivia." I started responding to her by saying " wha.. what" but she cut me off and continued to speak " where did the head strong, smart and willful Olivia go? The Olivia that tried to save me and love me as her own,even though she did not know if I would even live. I know that you have been through a lot. You just want things to start getting better and going your way for once but come on! It's life, nothing is ever fair, you just have to keep on going because better days are ahead." I replied back angrily " you said it was my choice, mine, and I made one so deal with it." Lilly then looked down sadly while the train finally stopped in front of me. The train doors had opened and other people started to get on,while others just looked from a distance. Lilly spoke up and said " well,I do not have time to waste and neither do you, and this is for the best." I was trying to figure out what she was talking about but she had already shoved me full force into the train. Before I could spin around to get off, the train the doors had already closed and the train started moving off slowly. I looked through the glass window and Lilly was there waving goodbye at me. I was pissed, I wanted to stay here but now I am on a train to who knows where. A random person told me that I had to take my seat and only leave my seat when the train reached my stop. I sat down and all flashes of Sophie started going through my mind. All of her firsts, smiles, walk, word and more. I started to feel guilty because I was caught up in being so selfish that I forgot I had my little one waiting on me at home. I eventually drifted off to sleep what felt like hours. I was woken up when the train come to a sudden halt. I started to look around when I heard, " Olivia Benson, this is your stop, please exit the train." I got up and slowly exited the train. I was now at a hospital and felt myself being pulled to a certain room, so I followed that pull that I was feeling and it led me to a hospital room. I opened the door to the hospital room, and in that room I saw myself laying on a bed. I could not believe my eyes. My spirit you could say was now being pulled into what was my physical body.

TBC..... TBC.... TBC.... TO BE CONTINUED
I hope you enjoyed this update 🙃. Olivia was getting a little selfish lol but since it's Valentine's I thought I'd give a little happiness sprinkles to this chapter.

Happy Valentine's Day 🌹

~fire_fairyland🧚‍♂️