Kaise hua

broken doll

Bondita was sitting under the table and so much cry made her cheeks and nose red but no one came to ask her why is she crying, maybe till now no one acknowledged her presence in their house, servants talk about her like she was living there just like a refusee on trilochan's pity, otherwise anirudh babu will never get married to her, no one can take kumud's place, bondita was so small to understand their criticism, she is not understanding that why all her dear ones were making distance with her, the roy chaudhary haveli which was like a second home to her now it feels completely strange, her kumud didi was not there, kaka who used to laugh with her now didn't talk with her, som dada also didn't brought chocolates, batuk play rarely with her because he was very busy in school and jamaibabu he didn't even came to meet her from the time they got married, he din't talk with her from the time when kumud didi fall from stairs, bondita was remembering her ma and thakuma's care, she wants to go there, she want to go to her mother.

Anirudh was working in his study when he heard her crying, his ears shot up and immediately ran to the direction from where the sound was coming, he found bondita was sitting under a table and crying with hiccups, bondita sensed someone is sitting behind her so she turned and found a anxious anirudh looking towards her, finding him near her a smile almost crept up on her lips but then she remembered he didn't even came to meet her from the time her kumud didi gone so now she don't want to talk to him. Anirudh asked her politly but bondita didn't reply. So he tried again

Bondita what happen, why are you crying.

He held her hand and pulled the crying bondita from under the table carefully, he knows it was her old habit whenever she was upset or angry either she blow her cheeks or sat under any table to show her displeasure, if she was angry then he would have been sat there to help her cooling down her cute anger but now the matter is something else she was crying this much that her whole face turned red and it didn't sit well with him. But as he pulled her out he noticed her look, she was not looking like that little girl with whom he used to play, who used to ran behind him calling jamaibabu this jamaibabu that, but she was looking like a complete married girl with the sakhapola, sindoor and heavy saree on her small petile figure, she was looking like a child bride, his child bride.

All the scenes from their baby announcement to kumud's death, his search for bondita, the accusations of villagers and forced marriage flashed infront of his eyes in a blink, unknowingly he stood up and took a step back making bondita look at him in confusion, and he started to go from there but bondita caught hold of his hand and stood up said

Jamaibabu, what happen ,don't you want to know why I am crying

Anirudh got tears in his eyes, he was in his own world of memories where he was living happily with his wife and family and eagerly waiting for his child. But bondita's voice brought him back to the real world, suddenly he started feeling suffocating, he thought he did wrong with kumud by marrying again, how can he marry to her sister, it is disgusting. He don't want to see bondita face, what will he say when kumud will ask him, is this the only option to save her, by marrying that to in three months after his wife death.

Bondita is still sobbing and waiting for his reply but when he didn't say anything she shook his hand and brought his attention to her, anirudh quickly snatched his hand from her hold and ask why is she crying, bondita didn't feel his voice familier like her favorite jamaibabu infact he was looking angry, so she just say

Ma ke pass jana hai.

And he suddenly shouted for driver, ordered him to drop her to her thakuma's house and went from there without looking back, his rude behavior brought more tears in her eyes but she was little happy that now she can go to her mother.

Soon bondita reached das haveli, she immediately ran inside the house shouting for her mother, sumati and kalindi came outside hearing her voice and noticed a crying bondita, panic rose in their hearts by looking her condition and many unfavorable thoughts started running in their head like did her in laws send her away from home, did she do any mistake their, did anybody said something to her, why is she crying this badly, did anirudh babu denies to acknowledge her as his wife, did anyone beat her for any mistake etc ,etc.
Sumati immediately collected her in her arms and made her drink some water, bondita told her everything how her pishi sasuma slapped her and no one said anything to her, everyone is just ignoring her, jamaibabu didn't even ask why is she crying and everything. Sumati can't see her daughter like this but she was helpless, trilochan got ready to marry her to anirudh even if anirudh was completely against it, they own him this favor, moreover they are from girl's side they have to bend infront of groom family, thakuma wiped her tears and even if she know it to be wrong she made her understand like

Bondita your sasuma is just trying to make you a kushal grahini and i know there is difference in the way of teaching but she wants your good only, now you are not a little girl who can play and say anything to anyone, now you have to learn all the household works and keep your in laws happy, I know jamaibabu was not like this but we about know his anger issues if he say anything just do it and don't provide him any reason to raise hand on you, ok, and now roy choudhary haveli is your house, you can't always came there with their complaints, just learn to tolerate some words and don't gave them any reason to throw you out of there house, right

Bondita was expecting her to say like she will talk to them and they will not say anything to her from now, but thakuma's words crushed her all hopes and they made her return to the roy chaudhary haveli to suffer everything all alone. Thakuma was also not wrong there, she had her own reasons, now bondita is a married girl and if her in laws throw her out then this society will not let her live, her life will get ruined, they made her marry to anirudh so that they can save her from society accusations, if she came there by taking her every problem then it will be difficult for her to cope up with her married life, she is a girl she have to tolerate .

It was four months of there marriage, and now bondita was no more like a happy and chirpy girl, the so called responsibilities after the married life changed her into a mature lady before time, this marriage crushed all her hopes to study, to feel independent, to be happy, to laugh with heart, to do anything of her desire, to roam freely anywhere, to talk to her mother whenever she wants.
This new life costs her a lot, mandakini tortured her a lot in the name of lessons but bondita was a quick learner which helped her to gain support of trilochan and other family members, and mandakini have to return back to her house for some urgent work ,
Here everyone started to accept bondita in place of kumud but anirudh was still distant from her although on trilochan pressure he started to live in her room and was trying to move ahead but sometimes kumud's memories brought him back to his past.

Bondita and his relationship changed a lot in these four months, they were still living like strangers in a same room, communicate only when necessary, bondita fulfill all her duties as a wife and he did all the works which as a husband he have to for her, except physical relation, he tried even to avoid any type of physical contacts with her because he don't want that for now he will desire her in the way like a husband desires his wife, the are not ready for this, they were still not connected with emotions and bondita don't know about this and trilochan also didn't pressurize them knowing there situation. But anirudh also started admiring her from distance, on trilochan's advice he removed kumud's materials from his room, although he knows that she will always remain in his heart and no one can take her place.

But bondita made a different place in everyone's heart for herself, she is now thirteen years old, mandakini absence and everyones support somehow brought back the smile on her face but no pampering or sweet words can erase those memories from her mind when mandakini used to beat her, abuse or torture in the name of training of kushal grahini. And fun fact is this no one in the family knows about this, they thought it was just because she was growing then her nature was also changing.

Although she accepted this changed life but she missed her old life a lot, when there were no restrictions on her to roam freely in the market, to eat kulfi and puchka by standing on middle of the road, she can play, talk with anyone,
Go to school, study, make friends, but now she is not any other ordinary girl who can do as she wish but now she is the eldest daughter in law of roy choudhary haveli, her small mistake can provide others a chance to ruin the respect of her family.

It has been a year since she last went to school but her want of study is clearly shown in her eyes whenever she asks batuk about his day in school, how she admired his new books, she read his books with a great interest, batuk was always lazy in doing his homework so bondita did it for him and helped him in preparing for exams, she also prepare his projects and batuk got all the praises for his good work, she want to be a teacher but this marriage and responsibilities broke her all hopes so she found little happiness in doing his school work but looking like her happy bubble is going to burst soon.

Anirud was noticing batuk homework copies for sometime, it has different writing, he recognized batuk's handwriting and can clearly say it was not written by him, he is not doing his homework by himself someone else is helping him ,but who, he and his companion needs a punishment for this mischief.