you're what i want | billie eilish

11. family issues

"that's not how it goes billie!" i laughed as i watched her sing Ol McDonald with ariella.

"bro that's how i learned it" she chuckled and continued to sing. "we have to start getting ready though forreal" billie stood up and brushed her pants off.

today is jonah's funeral, this will be the first time i see his family since i left.

after we all got into our outfits i did ariellas hair into a half up half down look with a black bow and then applied a light layer of makeup onto myself.

"ready?" billie asked at the bathroom door. "as ready as i'll ever be" i sighed and took ariellas hand and we left.

a limo picked us up and brought us to the funeral home.

"alaia," i heard jonah's mom from behind me. i slowly turned my head to face her. i could see the bags underneath her eyes and the tears that have stained her perfect skin.

"hi melanie" i smiled and pulled her into a hug. "i'm glad he was with you when it all happened, he really loved you alaia" i nodded because she never knew what went down between us.

not long after did the ceremony start. i stood in the front with his parents and had arielle stand in front of me. i held onto her shoulders, occasionally taking my hand to wipe my tears.

"today we take the time to honor jonah kabir. a loving son, best friend, uncle and father" melanie spoke from the front of the room.

after his ceremony we went to a hall for everyone the gather and talk. i sat in the back corner while ariella napped in my arms.

i was ready for today to be over and done with, i'm so exhausted.

ariella and i were sitting at a table in the back corner so she could eat. she really didn't understand it all but she cried a few times. she really loved her dad after everything.

"alaia," i looked up to see jonah's dad. he never really liked me, he thought his son was too good for me.

not soon after did his sister come up behind him.

fucking great.

her and i never got along, she was a grade below jonah and i in school and we absolutely hated each other. she would lie to jonah about me and make up stories of me cheating on him.

"hi shawn, hey payton." i gave them both a fake smile.

"why are you here alaia? you want money or something." payton sat across from me.

"excuse me?" i furrowed my eyebrows "no i don't want fucking money" i gave them the dirtiest look.

"you're here with your kid acting all sad and shit hoping you get money from him for her just so you could use it. we all know you hated him" i'm in shock.

"are you shitting me right now payton?!" i stood up and got into her face. maybe taking a few shots wasn't the best idea. "even if we weren't on good terms doesn't mean anything. i loved jonah, i'll always love jonah. he gave me my daughter. and you don't know shit about anything because ariella is quite literally on his will." i ended up screaming at the end of my little speech.

i saw billie approaching us with a concerned look on her face. she grabbed paytons shoulder and spun her around. luckily she had her glasses, beanie and mask on so nobody would recognize her.

"don't do it" i knew she was drinking too, i saw her by the bar with victoria. billie brought her hand up and smacked payton right across the face.

"billie!" i shouted and grabbed her to pull her a
back.

"watch your mouth bitch." she mumbled and payton fired back with a punch right to billies gut.

"that's enough!" melanie came over to us and held payton back. "alaia you should go" she shook her head.

i grabbed my things and held ariella on my waist before getting vic from the bar and calling for billie to follow us.

i was driving since i only had a few shots.

the drive was silent, ariella had fallen asleep and billie and victoria were knocked out.

when we got home i gently brought ariella up to her bed and then went back out to the car to wake vic and billie up.

"billie. get up" i roughly shook her then went to the back to do the same to vic. they both groaned and stretched before stepping out the car. "get the fuck in the house" i scoffed at billie.

it was already 6 so i had to start dinner. billie and vic went to sleep and ariella would be waking up soon.
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i left plates in the fridge for vic and billie while ariella and i ate. "why was auntie so upset mommy?" ari looked up from her plate and at me. "she was just upset at mommy, but we'll be okay" i reassured her.

after dinner she took a shower with me and we watched a quick movie before she went to bed.

"bedtime story?" she asked as i went to walk out her room. "which one" i breathed out and went to her bookshelf.

"can we do three little bears?" she smiled and i grabbed it.

we sat and read it, her interrupting me every 5 minutes. "okay i love you baby. goodnight," i kissed her forehead and made sure she was tucked in before turning on the nightlight and leaving the room.

i sat in the living room for some time before doing my skin care and going up to my room. billie was sprawled out on the bed, she hadn't even taken her shoes off. i grabbed my blanket and silk pillow before going down the hall to the other guest room.

i twisted and turned all night, i'm not used to sleeping on my own.

i am so beyond pissed at billie, her career can be on the line now. they could sue her for gods sake.

i finally fell asleep with my heart heavy and head full of thoughts.