Hidden Scars (Ashton Irwin fanfic)

Chapter 2

I couldn't stop thinking about him. His beautiful hazel eyes. His unforgettable voice. Everything about him. It felt like it took months to finally get to lunch. I usually despised lunchtime because that's when most of the bullying happened but today I was actually looking forward to it. I was happy. I was truly happy. He made me feel something more than that, though. I didn't bother going through the lunch line. Lately, it was rare when I actually ate. Of course, all four boys were waiting in line so I walked over to them.

"Hey, Tor!" Ashton yelled as loud as he could even though I was at the most 5 feet away.

"Hi," I replied getting in line with them. They joked around a bit and I just stood there casually laughing a little. After awhile I started to feel left out. They had started to talk about who they'd fuck out of all the kids in our grade when I decided to leave. "Uh, I'm gonna go to the library for lunch, ok?"

"Ya whatever," was Calum's answer. The others didn't even acknowledge that I said anything.

Before I left I heard Ashton say, "I'd fuck Bree definitely." Of course. He doesn't want me. Why would he want me.

I put my hood up, my head down and walked away. I tried to keep the tears that were stinging my eyes from falling. They didn't want me there. I should've known that they were just playing me. As I burst through the library doors I took in the smell of books, old and new. The library was three stories and full to the rim. No one ever went on the third floor so that's where I went. There was a couch and fantasy books but instead of grabbing a book off the shelf I sat on the couch and let the tears slowly fall. I couldn't believe I met a guy and that day I believed he liked me. Why in hell did I actually think he liked me I thought to myself. I barely knew him so why did this hurt so much? I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my forehead on them. That's when I heard the door open. I tried to wipe my eyes off with my sweatshirt sleeve but it did nothing because they were still puffy and red.

"Tori," I heard a boy's voice whisper. "Tori are you in here?" It was Ashton. I knew it was. I wanted to run and hide but I had no where to go so I pulled my hood over my face and pretended to be asleep. It was the oldest trick in the book but I had to try it. He couldn't know that I was crying. He couldn't know how weak I was. I heard his steps getting closer until they stopped and I knew he saw me. "Tori, are you up?" I flinched when he said my name. "I know you're awake. Come on and look at me."

"No thanks," I mumbled but not moving my head.

"Tor, what's wrong?"

"What the hell do you think!" I turned my head to glare at him but I didn't stop to think about it. The first look he gave me was of shock and then sympathy.

"Why were you crying? Did someone say something to you?" I rolled my eyes at him. Did he really not know?

"I can't believe you don't know..."

"What do you mean?" I gave him a little sarcastic laugh before I stood up to face him.

"Oh maybe it was the fact that you asked me to come hang out with you at lunch and then you completely ignore the fact that I'm there. Like how you guys just casually started talking about who you'd fuck! Don't fuck Bree though. You'll probably get Aids." For a couple seconds Ashton just stared at me and it took awhile for me to realize that I was crying. I threw myself back onto the couch and covered my face in my hands.

"Tori, I'm really-"

"Ashton don't. Just... stop. Just leave. Please..."

"I'm not leaving."

"Please, Ash..." I begged.

"No. I'm so sorry I had no idea."

"Obviously. You completely forgot I was there."

"You could've spoke up. You could've got in the conversation." He walked over and sat on the couch next to me. I felt his hands on my own as he peeled them away from my face, studying the tears. "Why are you crying?" I didn't know why I was crying.

"I don't know..." I said with a sigh. The next thing that happened was unexpected. Ashton wrapped his arms around me and held me against his chest.

"Well, please stop then. It makes me sad to see you cry. " I gave a little half laugh and nodded.

"Ok."

"Let me make it up to you," he said looking into my eyes. "I'm taking you out for dinner on Friday and I'll drive you home from now on."

"You don't have to do-"

"But I want to. Please let me." He gave me his best puppy dog look and I had to admit it was pretty damn adorable.

"Ok I guess," I said giggling. Again with the giggling! What was wrong with me.

"Good! Now we better head to class. It's kind of already 10 minutes past the second bell." I could feel how big my eyes were.

"Shit! I can't be late! I need an excuse! What the hell can I use for an excuse? Oh god this sucks! I can't believe-"

"Tor," Ashton said cupping my chin in his hand. "Just walk down to the librarian and she'll see that you were crying. I bet that'll be a good enough excuse." So that's what I did. The librarian gave me an excused pass plus an extra 15 minutes to help look like I wasn't crying. She gave Ashton one also minus the extra 15. Ashton and I walked out of the library together and I was about to head to the bathroom when he grabbed my hand. I turned around to ask what he was doing but before I could get the words out he placed a gentle kiss on my left cheek.

"Don't you ever cry over me again," he said. "Promise?"

"I promise."