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' When someone dies , you grieve , when you lose yourself , you grieve , when you lose something , you grieve , what people don't talk about is grieving something that was taken away from you by force , something you can never get back again ' .
Mum can I talk to you Charlotte stares at me , confused " yes ? '' she says questioningly . " why did dad make himself so shallow ? Choosing liquor over us ? " She doesn't reply , turning around . And that's when I realised the liquor wasn't what made him shallow , he went to the bar already unclean , trying to find a way to scrub the dirt away ...
" Mom ? what.. what do you do if you have sex that you don't like '' I ask , and her eyes narrow . " You had sex? '' she asks. "No ! no " I replied, my face flushed . " then you don't have to worry
about it "
there is this story I read about this girl whose mother dies , she stays at the house her mother died in and she lives there for years , refusing to move out , I always thought that was stupid , why would someone want to stay somewhere that hurt you ? until I realised it was never about what hurt her , it was about what she lost . She didn't want to leave her mom.
" melody , you can do better than this " Daniel , my teacher , says . " sorry " I should feel bad , but I can't seem to find it in me to care . Mr Daniel stares at me , disappointed " is this all you have to say ? " he asks , and I in that moment feel all the anger I have Against the World boil up . " no , I have something else to say , f*** off "
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My Secret To Keep
General Fictionan anorexic teenage girl has a secret that is ruining her life , and she finally decides to share it , but will this help save her ? or will it kill her ?
