song: look after you - the fray
❀ ·˚ ༘ ∘I AWOKE AT the middle of night, the stars still gleaming over my head. I looked to my side, Gray's head snuggled into my shoulder and his arm draped around my torso. His breaths steady, and calm. His features so soft.
I couldn't stop myself as I dragged my finger lightly down his scar. Up and back down, the feeling of it on the pads of my fingers. He is so pretty.
How did I ever get stuck with a guy like him?
I remembered the way he talked about the stars, his voice so deep and calming as it soothed me to sleep. I liked hearing him talk so much. I never thought he had it in him. And it's a bonus because it's stars and constellations. I love that.
Stargazing is so romantic. Everyone needs to go stargazing atleast once in their life. It's absolutely amazing.
I kissed him on the cheek, his smell infiltrating my senses. I felt that I was already falling so close to being in love with him. Or maybe I already was?
I wasn't sure. I always think that if you have to hesitate before you say you love someone then it's not love. But I know I want to fall in love with him but am I in love?
I don't know. It was so late I didn't want to mess up my brain with these thoughts.
I instead went back to all the times and memories we had together. Everything he's told me and the sacred moments we had together. The fear filled me when I remembered how he got shot in the shoulder. I think it's okay now. I thought he was meant to wear a sling but he never had one on.
I remembered just how scared I was when I thought he was dead, gone forever. I wouldn't have known what to do if he was gone. I won't let him die, I'm not sure how I would though.
Like if he had a gun to his head, what would I do? I would sacrifice myself that's what. Like, y'know, "don't shoot him, shoot me!" I would want him to live his life rather than have me live it because I just wouldn't be able to bare with the pain of having him gone. But can he bare the pain of having me gone?
Well, then again. I don't know how much he cares for me, or if he cares for me at all. This could be all some sort of booby trap to take all my parent's money. Or I don't know.
My brain goes all weird when it's so late at night. I can't process anything.
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I rolled onto my side, not wanting to awake but I forced myself to anyways and my eyes drifted open, my body fully atop of Gray, his arms tightly wrapped around my waist.
I tried to get up, escaping out of his grip. "Gray." I groaned and tried to leave but he wouldn't let me. "No." He said in a sleepy voice and pulling me back down. "Gray!" I shouted slightly louder and tried once more but he shool his head.
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