MADLY INLOVE WITH A GAY

CHAPTER 9

DUST covered all Shanna's late brother—
Shawn's grave stone٫ with withered flowers, leaves٫ and broken branches are everywhere the graves.
It was almost dark when she reached San Rafael cemetery, as promised she visited her brother's grave after the graduation ceremony with her are her awards٫medals and diploma.

She gently removed all the dust with her hands that covers his brother's name and placed a new flowers she bought and a big white candle.
She smiled bitterly after she successfully lit up the candle with the matches.

Kung hindi pa siya pinauuwi ng mga magulang ay wala sana siyang balak pang umuwi pa sa mansion٫ subalit kailangan.
Ngunit bago paman siya mag tungo ng mansion ay sinandya muna ng dalaga ang puntod ng namayapang kapatid.

"Kuya٫ kumusta kana diyan?. Alam ko masaya kana kung nasaan ka ngayon. Sana proud ka sakin kahit ako ang dahilan ng pagka wala mo." a warm liquid are now streaming down her cheecks while hugging her own kness٫ while her hand is gently touching the marble solid plate where her late brother's name was engraved.

It was peaceful in there, she could only hear the birds chirping and the leaves that are swaying freely because of the wind. She sighed heavily as if trying to remove the pain in her heart that has been there for so long that she could longer remember when or how she started feeling it.

"Kuya, I envy you." Aniya habang ang mga luha ay masaganang nilalandas ang kanyang mga pisnge.

"Kahit nandiyan kana sa kabilang buhay ikaw parin ang iniisip nila mom at dad. Ikaw parin yung favorite nila, how I wished, na sana ikaw nalang ang nandito at ako ang nandiyan. Everything could have been better than this way." she continued, she sniffed and wiped her tears using her arm.

Walang ibang saksi ng kanyang pag luha kundi ang araw na palubog at ang hangin na tinatangay ang bawat hibla ng kaniyang natural na mahaba at kulot na buhok.

"Kuya hindi ko na alam kung hanggang kailan ko panghahawakan ang pag mamahal na'to para kina Dad at Mom, I tried kuya. I tried, pero paulit-ulit nilang pinapadama sa akin na wala akong kwentang anak." tuloy padin sa pag agos ang kanyang mga luha na para bang kay tagal niya iyong inipon at ngayon ay umapaw na nga.

She was deeply hurt from her brother's passing and from how her parents treats her. She did not just loss her brother but also her relationship with her parents.

"Kailangan ko na pala umalis kuya٫ dadalaw ulit ako sa susunod." aniya habang marahang linalis ang mga luha na nag landas sa kanyang mga pisnge.

Pagkaraan ng ilang sandali ay iniwan na nga ni Shanna ang cemetery at bumyahe pauwi ng mansion nila. Siya lang ang makakauwi sa pag kakataong iyon dahil umalis patungong China ang ate niya para sa isang environmental reseach nito doon kasama ang iba pang mga environmental scientists.

Si Labyrith naman ay umalis din٫ earlier Labyrinth recieved a call from his mom saying he has to go back in Canada because his grand mother passed away٫ hindi niya alam kung kailan ito babalik. So now that she's all by herself٫ she can't help but feel lonely٫ and empty.

As much as possible she doesn't wanna go back to San Rafael anymore٫ for this place reminds her so much of painful memories٫ and her traumatic childhood experiences.
Habang tanaw sa di kalayuan ang malawak na bakod ng kanilang mansion٫ isa-isang nag sibalikan sa ala-ala niya ang mga masasakit na tagpo ng buhay niya.

FLASHBACK...

"Madam٫masyado pong mataas ang lagnat ni Shanna... kahapon pa po iyan ayaw bumaba." halos maiiyak na turan ni Manang Rosa kay Barbara ina ni Shanna ng isang gabi ay ibalita ng kanyang yaya ang nangyari sa kanya.

"Painumin mo lang siya ng gamot manang٫hindi niya ikakamatay yan. Importanting makapasok siya sa paaralan bukas٫wag siyang mag inarte." halos walang emosyon nitong sambit sa kasambahay.