It's 3pm. Jisoo again went near her window to see Namjoon but she couldn't find him. She stood there for ten minutes before going to see what happened but what she saw next broke her heart till that extent where she couldn't control and ran to her room crying.
Namjoon was sitting on the stairs to the 3rd floor. He kept on looking towards that room but never dared to go up. Words lingering in his head are slowly turning into physical pain.
"You are are my mistake, my biggest mistake of my life. I hate you. And this baby in my stomach does not deserves to live in this world. If it does then it will also turn out like you. No no no, I will not let that happen. Live or die I don't care about you. You are a mistake and I hate you."
"His permission doesn't matter dear, Eomma didn't even ever considered him as her own son, she hated him."
"24 hours you have in your hand, leave Jin or else I will make his life a living hell, even more hell then yours"
"Rang loves Jin and will keep him happy, atleast happier than you. You know what, you have nothing, you just have a perfect standard body but no heart. Your family members also pity you"
There words are eating Namjoon alive. He wants to scream out but then he has to bear everything to not give anyone pain. Who will understand his sorrows? There are times he asks himself, why is he not a selfish person? But deep in his heart he knows, he is gifted with a rare ability; Ability to love someone selflessly. It hurts but it gives the satisfaction of seeing someone fine as well.
For some people, Namjoon is a blessing or for some people he is a curse but No matter how unfortunate, born unhappy, hurt from insults and misunderstandings he is; he sways with curses and blessings while both eyes filled with pain. No one knows the fact that he rushes to make the danger, miseries and pain of others his own.
He remembered what happened yesterday. Everything happened so quickly.
While Namjoon zoned out thinking about his miseries, Jin was in the office with Rang.
"What happened Jin? You look depressed" asked Rang genuinely worry for Jin afterall he really liked Jin. "Sir what can I say, it's my husband. I love him so much but he hates me" cried out Jin. Jin in his innocence has attracted Rang to the level where his desire turned into his life goal; Desire to have Jin. Rang started to do whatever his father said him to do; he started to Manipulate Jin. He started to insert poison in jin's heart for Namjoon.
"Jin you may think that I am saying this just because Namjoon is my rival but trust me I know him. Hoseok told me. You know Jin, How selfish Namjoon is? He killed YN, my cousin Sister and Hoseok's girlfriend. He even killed his mother. He destroyed hoseok's carrier. He even destroyed your relationship with IU aunty....."
5pm, Jin came back home and straight went to Hoseok's room.
"Hobi" Called Jin seriously. Hoseok was busy sitting near the window staring towards the balcony, a unconscious desire to see Namjoon once. Hoseok turned to see Jin looking at him with a serious face, a complete opposite to the Jin he knows.
"Hyung? What happened?" Asked Hobi walking towards jin. "I want to know something which may hurt you but I need to know" Jin looked down but Hoseok's answer made him look straight into hoseok's eyes. "You can never hurt me, ask me whatever you want to ask, I promise I will answer you. "
"Who is YN Lee? What happened to her? " Jin's question brought tears in hoseok's eyes but he controlled it and let out a loud sigh.
He started "YN Lee was my girlfriend hyung. She was Rang's cousin. We were happy. But Namjoon couldn't see us happy at all. He slowly started to go near YN. Then one day he suddenly started to fight with me about YN... He told me that He loves YN from the first time he saw her and YN also loved him. I went to YN to know what happened but she hugged me and cried on my chest. She told me that whatever Namjoon said was true. Namjoon was my Best friend, so for his happiness I broke up with YN. But He killed her Hyung, he killed her. I requested him to keep my YN safe and happy but he killed her Hyung... " At this point Hoseok was crying miserably and Jin was shocked to hear Namjoon's truth from hoseok.
But the thing they didn't notice was a person listening to their conversation. His heart was getting ripped with hoseok's every word. Maybe this is what you get to love someone. Wiping his tears, he whispered "Keep on blaming me hoba, at least it will lessen your pain. I love you" And left from there.
"I still love Namu but Namu is dead. My namu is dead because he was not like this. He was a warm hearted kind person" Jin hugged Hoseok tightly in his embrace. Jin couldn't believe that Namjoon was this cruel. He was misunderstanding Namjoon and unknowingly a hate was growing in his heart for his husband.
Namjoon on the other hand went in his bedroom and looked at himself in the mirror. His heart again aching a bit but he couldn't care on his physical pain because his mental pain was way more than anything.
"So you came again? " Namjoon smiled and turned back. Hoseok was standing in front of him but it wasn't really Hoseok, it was just Namjoon's imagination. Namjoon knew it but he still couldn't stop himself. The Illusion use to come every day after Hoseok shut Namjoon out. At the beginning Namjoon used to get scared but now it has turned into his habit. Habit of Imagining Hoseok insult him but to his shock he Imagined Jin as well.
"So pathetic aren't you? You are still longing for my love after turning my life into a living hell!! " Yelled Hoseok at Namjoon who just looked at those illusions like they are real. "I couldn't believe you are this low RM, I really couldn't believe. You betrayed Hobi like this!? You know what I hate you" Said Jin looking straight into Namjoon's eyes. Namjoon's tears started to fall while he started to laugh. He looked like a whole psycho but that's the only way he could control himself; the only way he could whelve his emotions deep inside himself.
"Pathetic" "Murderer" "Betrayer" "Rot in hell" "Why are you even alive?" "Kill yourself you killer" "Curse in everyone's life" "You even killed your mother" "Psycho" And those illusions kept on cursing the hell out of him but all he did was to laugh while letting his tears fall. He knew this Jin and Hoseok were not true but those words hurt like a billion stabs at the same time.
"I love you both" Was all Namjoon could say and believe. He can't be weak now, he has to turn Jin's misunderstanding in hate. He has to make Jin hate him. He has time till today night. He has to get more hurt. No no no, he can't be this weak, he has to be strong. "You have to Hate me no matter what and for that i-if I'll have to die, then I will without a second thought. HATE ME SEOKJIN KIM.... Hate me Alpaca... hate...me.. " Cried out Namjoon.
He looked at the sky and smiled after wiping his tears "Give me as much pain as you want but save my Alpaca from every danger"
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O god why do I have to make Namjoon cry (wiping my fake tears)
Well a chapter over 1.3k words chapter. Hehe, I am sorry for being this late even after the completed targets. Well sorry but my annuals are knocking on the door so my maa is really strict about my studies. Well loves why are you all becoming silent readers day by day huh? Bad guys... Me no talk with you *pout* give me comments or me will not give any more updates... The choice is yours *biggest pout every*
Accha, one more thing, I am not going to give targets in one or two of the upcoming chapters to make it up to your wait.
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