Our Kind Of Goodbyes

NO MAFIA: SUICIDAL PORSCHE X RESTAURANT OWNER KINN

Kinn visited a beach because of a business meeting, it's ot that far away from the city, maybe around 1 to 1:30 hour drive from his restaurant to this beach. He enjoyed driving and travelling so did not make any comment when someone asked him to visit a certain beach for a meeting.

It took almost 3 hours before the meeting finished. So he took a stroll from the beach to have a fresh air.
While he's walking from the shoreline, glancing from side to side to have a better view of the place. He catches a figure of a person clearly looking far away to the ocean.

He's barefoot and only wearing a light brown short just above his knees and a yellow long sleeve but the sleeves were being rolled back to his elbows. His tan skin glow from the light of the setting sun. The more Kinn walks near the person, the more he can see that this person is clearly tired and... emotionless. He's slowly walking towards the water, it's not very noticable but Kinn can clearly noticed because he's near.

It's clearly not normal to walk deeper into the water with that empty eyes and blank expression. Kinn immediately ran towards the man, letting go of his laptop and bag, wetting his expensive dress shoes and trouser pants. He grabbed one of the man's hand and pulling him towards the sand, the man did not even react by the sudden harsh grab. When Kinn is sure that they're already away and from a safe distance, Kinn faced the man and held both of his shoulders.

" What do you think are you doing?!"

Kinn almost shouted at the man who only looked at him with a very tired and broken expression. It's no longer blank but Kinn saw the horror of the past that this person experienced.

"...I'm tired."

He mumbled, it's very low, like the breeze can easily block and no one will be able to hear.

" But it's not a good thing, what you're doing is not good at all. What about you family members?"

The man shook his head, eyes looking back and staring at the deep blue water, he's looking at it like it's calling him, tempting him to come and join them. Kinn wanted to throw up, he don't want to witness another losses, one is enough, he maybe not know this person but he still have feelings and emotions.

" I am all alone now... I don't have anyone..."

Kinn shook his head and immediately hugged him, the other man's eyes widen from the hug.

" There are still so much reason to live. You should try to treasure those moments."

Kinn can feel that the man shook his head.

" There's nothing left for me..."

Kinn let go of the hug and stared at the man.

" Let me show you the reason, give me the chance to show you the reason why you should continue living."

Kinn thought that maybe he became too nice again, but he did not regret his decision. He learned that the name of the man is Porsche, no last name, he's 28 years old and he have a younger brother but he did not tell Kinn about the name, Kinn did not pester him more.

He bought Porsche foods before he drive off back to the city. Porsche agreed to live with Kinn because he don't have anywhere to go anyway. Porsche was very silent throughout the ride, Kinn did not also talk unless it's very important.

They arrived at exactly 8:30 pm at Kinn's house. Kinn handed Porsche a new set of clothes and then he prepared a food for them, just light meals so it will get digested easily. Porsche slept inside the guestroom and Kinn did not sleep on that night at all.

Kinn manage to make Porsche more comfortable. It's been a month already and Porsche is more comfortable around Kinn, he even went to the restaurant to help and even became friends with some of his friends.

Porsche became a ball of sunshine to Kinn's life, he made Kinn more happy and more sociable  before. His friends even teased him that Porsche change him after a short period of time they've been together.

Porsche still did not talk about his life, about his brother and about his family. He just told him about some of his memorable days, the day he's still have friends that he can talk to. He did not mention any names but he sounded so happy and to, it's enough.

Days went by, Kinn catches some feelings towards Porsche. He tried to erase it but as time went by that he spend with Porsche, it only got stronger. He felt guilty so he did not express his feelings to Porsche, even if it hurts him to watch Porsche. He don't want to make Porsche uncomfortable so being silent is the ony thing he can do.

He tried to busy himself trying to avoid being with Porsche that he did not notice the sudden change of atmosphere around the house. Kinn got very busy that he forgot to check on Porsche's mental health. He did not notice that Porsche suddenly got too quite and isolated himself to the people he became friends with. He did not notice that Porsche started acting out of the blues again. He did not notice when Porsche greeted him that one morning will be their last time together. It's too late already to go back, it happened and Kinn did not even manage to say how much he love him.

He got a call from the police on that afternoon. He immediately went to the hospital where they brought the body. He arrived there and the police greeted him, telling him that the victim jumps over the bridge. The bridge where they both swear to live and made more of their time more memorable. The police found the victim's phone and found Kinn's contact first. It seems like the victim planned to call him but decided not to. They handed Kinn a piece of paper, it did not got wet because it's securely sealed. It's addressed to Kinn so they gave it to him and left him alone after showing him the room.

He entered the room, still holding the paper securely. He saw the body, covered in white cloth, don't have to open the cover to prove that it's the person he loved. He should not be surprised, it's supposed to happen, he just prevent it from happening too soon but he did not prevent it from happening.

He slowly open the letter with shaky hands. He handled it gently and carefully. He saw porsche's messy writing, he chuckled lightly when he remember the time he scolded Porsche to improve his writing so the other costumer can read it. Porsche just rolled his eyes and ignored him completely.

He sat not far from the table where the body was laying.

Dear my dearest Hero,

         I would like to express my whole hearted thanks for letting me stay with you and for showing me that there are still so much to live. I am happy that you save me that day. I am happy that I knew you and manage to enjoy the life I never know I can experience.

You made me so happy and it made me so scared how this happiness will end. I never know how to save myself from the very start but I am happy that someone like you made me feel special and worthy. It's maybe surprising to hear but I Love you.

I love you and I am sorry for falling in love with you. You can hate me all you want but that's how I felt towards you. I am sorry for not being able to made our promise last longer. I hope you don't forget about me but please don't lock yourself away from everyone.

With all the love of the world may fall upon you.

                Yours truly
        Porsche Pachara Kittisawat

Kinn never wanted to fall in love again.

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