Black (Paul Lahote)

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Anger.

Rage.

Anger.

Sadness.

Anger.

Loneliness.

Anger again.

All these emotions they say are a chemical in the brain, but right now it's coming from a heart, my brothers, he's hurt because he believes he just lost the love of his life, Bella.

I feel his emotions full force now, we have come to an understanding, a sibling bond has now intertwined us and if being a wolf didn't help well, this surely did.

After the mini war, with the baby vampires, then my little outburst directed at Bella, Jacob and I bonded, hung out more, now we were the twins that were meant to be, I loved Jacob as my cousin but now I really love Jacob, hes my Jakey cakes, even if every time I call him that he threatens to kill me or seriously maim me, I love him, we run together, we play fight, we actual fight, we eat, cook, clean, Bike and what ever else you do you can guarantee Jake is not too far behind if not next to me.

Well you see that was before, now its all anger and emotion and I feel it, all. It all began a few days ago when we both received a card in the mail, eloquently written, crisp and pristine.

This particular mail was an invite, a wedding invite.

Isabella Swan and Edward Cullen.

Now back to Jacob, Angry, sad, lonely, upset, distraught Jacob, This leads to a aggressive Rosie.

Jacob and I had to be separated because we were at each others throats, all the time.

My belief was that she had chosen her fate and Jacob needed to move on and leave the pale face alone, but since he shared a kiss with her that she had asked for and initiated, well he has been head over heels since, but she chose, she is getting married and it is not to him, he did not imprint on her so he shouldn't care, then he brought up me not imprinting either so that brought Paul into the equation and then war was nearing. 

Sam stepped in and Jacob ran off and I ran in the other direction a day after.

The war was in June, the wedding was in a week, it is August now and our emotions are still everywhere, well his emotions are, I am staying away from everyone because I almost ripped Deuces head off, so for fear of hurting anyone again I fled into the woods, away from everyone, away from Paul.

Jacob had calmed down in the last week so I decided we needed to talk because he was adamant in going to the wedding because it was what Bella wanted and I was forced to go by Rose and Alice, very quite scary, so I had to go dress shopping very soon and Jacob had to get his suit, so we were going to do it together.

Heading out of the forest and emerging behind my house I was surprised to see Deuce and Paul and the rest of the pack sitting behind the house, talking, playing around and acting civil.

I phased behind a tree and changed into some clothes I left behind there, just a pair of shorts and one of Pauls shirts and a sports bra.

I walked out and everyone turned to look at me, wide smiles on their faces, Paul came running to me first and picked me up by the waist and swung me around, planting kisses all over me and then we were knocked over by Deuce, Embry, Jared, Seth and Quill and again I was hugged, kissed, tickled and squashed before pulled from them into the safe arms of my best girl friend, Leah. 

"Hey guys" I said as everyone stood up,

"Rosie! We have missed you!" Seth said to me first, bouncing around on the spot and clapping,