Waiting To Bloom (BL)

Chapter 16

For last week I have been laying in my room in excruciating pain like a deep ache in my gut. It was as if I had an itch on the inside that I just simply could not reach with my hands no matter how much I tried. Fluids came pouring out of my backside constantly like a raging river. My front member never stayed down no matter how many times I forced an ejaculation. My body continuously felt hot and heavy. It became hard to walk or even breathe. The only thoughts that ever rushed through my head through this long, excruciating week, Was the thought of Jun-Myeon's lips touching mine. For the small, brief moment before he left my room, I felt complete. The world had stopped around us and it was just this small, perfect moment before I was smacked with The reality of that I did not belong in his world. I was nothing more than a black blotch in the middle of a masterpiece. I didn't understand what was happening to my body or why, But I just wanted it to stop. I wanted him to fix it. I called his name for an entire week, but he never came walking through that door. He never came to whisper. Sweet Words to me to comfort me. He never came and gave me a hug and told me I'd be alright. Instead, he ignored my pleas and Carried on with life as if I wasn't in this room. it felt more like a prison, And I was going to die alone in it. Sebastian came into the room every other day to give me water to make sure I wasn't becoming dehydrated. But I couldn't hold food down So I haven't eaten a meal in a week.

"Are you finally awake?" Sebastian asked as he walked into the room with a small Bowl Of mushroom and rice porridge. I never could read Sebastian, or rather he was happy or sad, or even if he was angry. He just kept this one tone voice with this porcelain doll like face, as if he's never even smiled a day in his life. I would believe that Sebastian was an AI robotic before. I believe that he was human. He showed no human characteristics. He looked like us and sounded human, but There was just like no human connection.

"Yes. Where's Jun?" I had softly as I sat in my window seal with a book. Getting ready to read until I saw Jun And some woman Locked arms with him walking towards the car. Both were dressed fancy as if they were going on a date. In that very moment, it was as if. The world had stopped and the only thing that was moving was the broken pieces of my heart as they fell from my chest and hit the floor, echoing Through my ears like a bad omen. I could hear as my heart Shattered like a piece of glass being hit with a stone. I listened as the small pieces of my glass heart tinged off the floor and shattered even smaller as I watched the man that I loved for the last three years walk out the door with another woman that I've never even seen before. He ignored my pleas and acted as if I didn't exist for the last week as I was in pain, screaming for help. No, but I am well. He is going on a date It hasn't Even so much, just said hello to me. But what could I be expecting? He's a guy. He's a guy I like. He's a guy that I like so I followed his social media accounts religiously. I never even met him or knew him, but I was perfectly happy with knowing small bits of his personal life, even if he didn't know my name. I was content with how things were. I could have loved him from afar and been perfectly fine, but he had inserted himself in my life and now he acted like I didn't even exist. After these promises and all these empty words. It's as if I'm once again the phantom of the halls. I can scream, plead, And I can try my best, but nobody will ever see me. Normally after expressing your feelings and kissing someone. You would either start dating or decide to be just friends, but in my case neither applies because I am a guy, and he is out of my league. Even though my heart is breaking before my eyes. I still can't help but to Want to know what his relationship is with her, But I can't. He owed me no explanation. I wasn't his boyfriend. Maybe I was just an experiment to him.

"He's gone out For a business meeting; he will return in about an hour." Sebastian said as he sat the porridge on the End table by my bed. He checked me one more time for a fever and made sure I was no longer in pain before leaving my room. Leaving me alone with the silent aching of my heart. As I watched June and his date drive away From my lonely third floor bedroom window. I felt like Rapunzel watching The lights from her tower Window, but never could reach them.