𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚘, Hyunjin

29.

November 2023

Lovers cause good moods. Since shopping with Hyunjin and spending the day with him, I have been in such a good mood. Everything was becoming so much more enjoyable. Life was becoming so much more enjoyable - I looked forward to waking up and heading to work because I usually get a good morning message from Hyunjin.

It happened today, a message came from Hyunjin when he woke up at 7 am for practice. Having Hyunjin as my lover gave me insight into Stray Kids' schedules. A new comeback was on the way for Hyunjin so he was called in for practice a lot more recently and the only time we could see each other, without being tired, would be the weekends.

I was fine with that, looking forward to the weekend was making the rest of the week go by quicker.

"How are you today Oliver?" My therapist asked as she sat in her chair with a good attitude.

"I'm great!" I said, my cheeks stretched with a smile that seemed unlike me.

"I see that," She chuckled, "What's got you in such a good mood?"

I thought about it for a second, I had never mentioned anything in a romantic light to my therapist so I was unsure of how she would take it. Would she give some advice? Try to tell me how to live? Would she react happily? Would she be homophobic?

"I...I think I have a boyfriend..." I told her, smiling, trying not to squirm around and become an excited puppy.

After a long and dull period, my world finally seemed to have gained some colour. The once monochromatic surroundings now looked vibrant and lively. It felt like a veil had been lifted from my eyes, and I could see the beauty in everything around me. The blue sky looked bluer, the green leaves looked greener, and the red roses looked redder. It was a magical moment, and I couldn't help but feel grateful for the gift of sight and the ability to appreciate the world's beauty.

Hyunjin's ability to love me beyond all my issues gave me the power to look upon the world with a new sense of happiness. It was bleak before, black and white, the only colours I cared to see were the ones painted on a canvas. Now, I liked the colour of the breeze, the fresh colours of people's emotions. I felt closer to the earth, to the stranger walking down the road. The colours on the canvases made more sense and Hyunjin was the centre of it all.

Hyunjin seemed to be the brightest colour at all times. His aura was palpitating with colours, it always seemed to be pulsing with energy and feeding into me. He became more than just a person to me, but a lover and a star who captivated me completely. The beauty of his aura was something I couldn't ignore and I was always warm and in awe around him. He inspired me, in every sense.

"That's amazing Oliver, how did you meet?" She asked, her smile genuinely happy for me.

"He came into the gallery I worked at and paid for a private tour," I told her and she smiled while writing it down.

"That's awesome, I recently got into a relationship also!" She cheered and I smiled, surprisingly very happy to hear that for her.

"It feels good to be wanted," I said to her, it felt easier to admit things regarding my feelings.

"It does, doesn't it?" She sighed with a wistful smile and I wondered if that's how I looked since I kissed Hyunjin, "What's your favourite part?"

"All of it," I admitted because I haven't disliked anything about being with Hyunjin, "I find everything easier around him, like speaking my thoughts, fewer worries, feeling safer,"

"That's really good for you Oliver, is this the friend you had issues with last time?" She asked and her full attention was on me.

"It is," I nodded, "We moved past the small issue,"