because you're different(raura)

chapter 2- empty hearted.

----Still Ross pov---

Laura and I finally found Raini and Calum; we were all sat in his dressing room because well, his is the best. We were all just talking about random things and catching up, until Laura spoke up and said she had an announcement, she had a beaming smile, I was almost worried, and what if she met someone? No way, she would have told us earlier, right? Oh gosh.

---Laura pov---

So I was about to announce that I have a boyfriend. Andrew, his name is, we have been together for like a year now, I never even told any of my friends, other than my school friends, because we go to school together so I can't really hide it from them, but I haven't told anyone on set, my family love him, and so do I, I think? I know what you're thinking 'you have been with him for a year, how can you not love him', well, when we first started getting together, I never even liked him, and I wasn't getting with him because I was attracted to him, I mean he is an amazing boy but, I was trying to get over someone, not an ex-boyfriend, but someone I have never even been with, but wish I was, he doesn't feel anything for me, I know it. I think you probably know who I'm talking about... Ross Shor Lynch. Yes. He is just always on my mind, I can't get him out! I mean I have grown to Like Andrew quite a lot... obviously I feel bad for using him almost, I'm actually pretty happy with him, but I'm starting to think he is drifting away a little, we haven't had sex yet, and I think that's why. I'm just not ready and he said he understood, there have been multiple times we have nearly done it but, a feeling in my gut just stopped me every time, we have done other stuff, but even when we do other things, Ross just pops into my head, like I want him to be my first. Also, I don't like to admit this too Andrew but, another reason I stop before losing my virginity, is because I'm just so insecure, about everything, my body the most, I've always been told I was too skinny, and I just feel uncomfortable about being intimate, I always wear pajamas when I sleep with Andrew, whereas he wears just his boxers.

Oh!, I haven't properly introduced myself, well, my name is Laura Marie Marano, I only have one sibling; my sister, Vanessa Marano, she is amazing, I also think she has suspicions about me and Andrews relationship, like she has noticed how I act sometimes can be a little.. Distant, I guess.

It's almost a cliché, isn't it? How I basically use someone to get over someone else, then it backfires because I end up liking them more, and I know it always happens, you know, there's a tv show or movie, and two characters who play love interests on screen, become love interests off screen.

Back to the announcement, oh god I've been deep in thought for ages...how do I start?

"okay guys so, I don't know how you are going to react to this, you may be mad that I have kept it from you for so long because you are my best friends and technically I should have told you waaay sooner but I was just scared because I wanted to wait to see how It went and then before I knew it it had been a year and—"Laura!, breathe!", Ross says with a nervous giggle. "Oh, yeah sorry, ha ha ha...", "so are you going to help us understand what you are even talking about?", "oh right yeah, sorry Calum, well, ugh I'm just going to come out with it...ihaveaboyfriendandwehavebeentogetherforayear..", oh god, that came out so fast, they definitely didn't understa--,"Laura? Wh-what?", I feel so bad now, oh no, Ross sounds so disappointed, if only it was because of jealousy, but no, it's probably, actually no not probably, it is definitely because I didn't say sooner, I mean can you blame him? How did he even hear that anyway? I said it at like mega speed, the other two just look clueless. Ross shot up and walked off, i need to find him and talk to him, i cant leave him like that.

---Ross pov---

No, no, no, no, no, no, NO.

I did not just hear that

I could feel my heart sinking in my chest slowly, painfully.

Why did she keep it a secret? And for a year? If whoever that reject is told her not too tell us, I swear to god---"ROSS? ROOOOSS? WHERE ARE YOUUUU?" brilliant, she came to find me, fantastic, she won't find me here, hang on, IM IN HER DRESSING ROOM, oh you dickwit Ross, she won't check here will she...?

"There you are!" ahh fan-fucking-tastic, she found me. "Why did you run off like that? Oh never mind that, I'm really sorry for keeping it from you guys, I was so wrong, I was just scared." what could she possibly be scared of? "Scared of what Laur? you are supposed to tell m-us these things, were all supposed to be best friends!, I'm sorry I stormed out, how did the others react?", it was honestly taking everything I had not too hug her right now, she looks so guilty and bad. "Well", she finally spoke up, "as you all know I haven't had any real relationships until Andrew...", so that's his name, wow, what would the ship name even be? Alaura? Andraura? Nope, Raura, I like the sound of. "a-and I was scared that if I told you guys as it was just starting, It would all go wrong, and..", "Laur, please don't say something like you were worried we would laugh or something..", she looked down at her hands and started fiddling with her nails, did she really think we were like that? She should know we would never make fun of her I mean, relationships are hard.

---Laura pov---

Ross took the words right out of my mouth, I was worried about that that they would think differently of me because I couldn't even hold a relationship, and I should have known they wouldn't have reacted like that. Ross hooked his thumb underneath my chin and lifted my head and my eyes met his, they were filled with, sadness? "Laura, I am so sorry you felt that way, you should know that we would never laugh at you or make fun of you! I-we love you so much, and care about you".

---Ross pov---

Shitttt! Her eyes were killing me right now, her everything was killing me right now, her mouth, her cute little button nose, but what really killed me is the expression on her face, her usual genuine smile, was replaced with genuine sadness. I couldn't help it, I pulled her into a hug, she instantly wrapped her arms around my neck, I enveloped her in tighter, she buried her head into the crook of my neck, like she always does, hang on, I feel something, wet? On my neck. Oh no, she's not...crying is she? I immediately pulled away but still kept my arms tightly around her petite torso, I pulled away just far enough to see her beautiful, innocent face, she turned away from me so I wouldn't see her cry, I lightly placed the palm of my hand on the side of her face and turned it back to me. "Please don't cry laur, I can't stand to see you cry", "i-im s-sorry R-oss", and with that tears came streaming out of her pained eyes, she collapsed into my shoulder, I heard her mutter something into my neck, "I've messed up", what does she mean? Does she mean messed up by not telling us? Or messed up with something else? I'll ask her later, for now I'm just going to keep her in my arms, she really belongs there. I wrap her legs around my waist, pick her up and walk over to the sofa and sit down, she gets more comfortable, I can feel the wetness from her tears going through my shirt, but I don't mind, I just want to make her feel better. This is how it is supposed to be, not her crying but us, like this, her in my arms. This is the first time I think ever she has cried too me, no matter how much I hate it when she cries, because she shouldn't have too, she is amazing, I'm just glad she feels she can be vulnerable with me, god I just love her. I have fallen, hard.