---Laura pov---
After about 5 minutes of giving suggestions on what to watch, we finally agreed on Teen Beach Movie, Ross isn't that keen on watching it but 'anything for me' right? Hehe. He put the film into the DVD player and pressed play, "you know how awkward it is watching my own film, right? I don't see why you even want to watch it, you have watched it loads, like more than me" he said with annoyance in his voice, which made me silently chuckle "oh ross, fine! We won't watch it, I'm going to the toilet quickly, pick another before I get back" I'm pretending to be annoyed with him, this is going to be fun. "Laur I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you!" I walked away to the bathroom without reacting to him, I came back about five minutes later, and he probably thinks I left or something, lol oops. I walked in to see him smiling at me glancing from the bed to the tv, he had got snacks from downstairs, minstrels, malteasers, mars milkshake, strawberries and GOGURT, eeeeek, hang on, I still need to act a little annoyed with him, I will just give off an annoyed vibe, yeah that's what I will do.
---Ross pov---
She walked back into the room, god she was ages; she probably had a poo, yep. I looked at the bed then to the TV, and smirked. She looked at both, I put magic mike on because she really wanted to watch it, I don't really mind, I am going to be to side-tracked by her, the fact that we are alone and watching films together, I got all of her favourite snacks, she looked at them and I swear she is holding back a smile, she sat on my bed and crossed her arms and legs, she sat as far away from me as she could, I know what she's doing. Two can play that game Ms Marano. I know she's pretending to be annoyed at me, she's not the sort of person to hold on to something as little as what I did, I really didn't mean to make her snap, I did feel a little bad but hey, I just didn't want to watch my own movie, especially since I have literally had to watch it like 100 times, I mean don't get me wrong, I like it and I am proud of it, but come on. Anyway back to the game, I leaned forward to press play and since she was sat so far away from me on purpose, when I leaned back I purposely moved to the side as I was moving back; I was now closer to her and could feel her tense up, why? "Lauuuuuuur? Are you annoyed?" "I'm watching the film Ross." I will just leave it at that, for now...
---Laura pov---
He was now sat like right next to me, but our legs or arms weren't touching, they would from time to time, and when they did, I tensed and got butterflies. Is it bad that all I want to do right now is be like we were earlier, snuggled into his chest with my legs wrapped around his waist, him cradling me, I felt so comfortable, safe. I can't do that with Andrew, he's not a cuddler really, and he's more of a kisser, a rough kisser at that. Which I don't mind, kissing's good ya know? Just sometimes all I want is long cuddles from my boyfriend, is that too much to ask? "Laur? Lauraaaa??? The films been finished for ten minutes and your like on my lap..." FUCK. I was so deep in thought I didn't even know what I was doing..."s-sorry" I say awkwardly "no it's fine, don't worry" he says, he sounds happy? "What were you thinking about? You were completely out of it!" "u-um n-nothing" I feel my eyes welling up, nonono not again, please.
---Ross pov---
I think she is going to cry again, wow she is emotional today. I pulled her closer to me again because she had got off my lap and back onto the bed "laur, what is it now? You can tell me" she shook her head, "were you thinking about Andrew again?" "Sort of, I was just thinking, about earlier" "what about earlier Laura?" I wasn't sure what she meant by earlier. "Just like when, we were in your dressing room and you were comforting me, Andrew doesn't do that, he doesn't really like cuddles, he prefers...other stuff" "what do you mean by other stuff? Like sexual stuff?" she went silent, wait so they have done stuff? Now I'm curious to know what they have done.
---Laura pov---
What do I say? Do I tell him what we have done? Maybe I should I don't know, all I know is I just feel so close to him right now. "L-laura, h-he doesn't make you do anything does he?" "Well technically no, but, I'm scared that---""scared?! Of what??!" "Ross! You didn't let me finish, I'm scared that if I don't do things with him he will break up with me, then again, I'm also scared that he will break up with me because I'm not good and he isn't satisfied..." why did I tell him that?? He probably thinks I'm being stupid, which I probably am.
---Ross pov---
I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW. She is scared that if she doesn't do what he wants he will end it? She needs to end this relationship, now. Not because I'm so jealous it is killing me inside, which it is, but that's not the reason. I'm worried for her, what if she loses her virginity to him because she doesn't want to lose him? Why is she scared to lose him anyway? He doesn't like cuddles, she can't be honest with him, she can't talk about her problems with him and all he wants to do is sexual things. What about the other things? Like making sure she's okay all the time, comforting her when she is scared or upset, caring about her more that anyone in the world? Oh wait, that's my job.
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Romansawhat happens when you are forced to hide your feelings? its not easy, especially for Ross, its just what he has too do. His best friend, Laura Marano, is the love of his life, she just doesn't know, he is convinced she doesn't feel anything towards...
